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School

2012-01-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

School sucks. It feels like its sucking my life , FML :(
Its CNY on Monday and i have loads of homework to do. Holiday my arse :/

Look at this cutie pie! heheh

Hong Wen Yang

2012-01-14T02:28:00.000+08:00

Cause this post is especially for the guy that's leaving us.

I'll miss you like crazy and i know i already wrote a long letter but hahah its never enough! I'll never forget all those times when we baked (more like burned), when we made stick figures out of pasta and sausages, broga, ''''gym'''' , the underwear shopping, your birthday, KL and prostitutes, our zombie apocalypse, wendy's ,sleepovers, being your elder sister when we had to sound poor so that Shaun could sell his ipad :'D HAHAHAH shit this is gonna make me miss you more! And as crazy as it sounds, you're actually a good influence! You stop me from doing anything stupid and you point out which guy is good and bad(HAHAH), you always motivate me to be a better person and a better christian. So yeah, i really wanna thank you for that ♥ Owh and i learn something new all the time when im with you and you learn something new too! HAHA. I'll really miss someone calling me a bimbo all the time :') I know that you'll do great at Adelaide so i just hope that you'll come back soon and Yan wei will be waiting for you okay? ;D HAHAHAH actually you havent even left yet but whatever lah hahah. Bye ♥ and update little green peas! YOU PROMISED!

2012-01-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT HGFHKGKHD

It dosent even matter

2012-01-11T19:39:00.000+08:00

So my week has basically been okay. Since school has started nothing much really happens anymore. But yeah, wen yang's leaving. He's going to Adelaide to study at his old high school and he'll be there for like 2 years. And he promised me that he'll come back so he HAS to come back >:( So when he told us, things got pretty emotional and we all started crying and all. The next day, we were supposed to go for supper but we ended up going to the park instead. Wen yang came only at like 10.30 ish but he had to go home early or something so he went back at 12ish. The rest of us were just sitting in Shaun's car talking until like 2. Thenn the next day i went for impact plus it was the last day i'd be seeing wen yang so i gave him a hug and then i had to go for dinner at Monic's. It really sucks that wen yang's leaving. Things are not gonna be the same without him and he's just a really great friend. But he's coming back to visit on June so yayyy! This year has pretty much been nothing but shit. Seriously,problems after problems. And its only been like 11 days? Idk how to survive the rest of the year, i promised myself after that night that i wont let anything bring me down but yeah hahah. Okay, i have to do my homework now and probably play the piano. Sigh, what is life :(

Not worth it

2012-01-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

Idk why its like i dont have the enthusiasm to blog anymore :/ Well, my year started okay i guess. Went for watchnight service then went to Williams with Shaun, Wen yang & Ian :) The night ended early cause of my parents and ian's sister though :/ Sigh, then after that the year was like shyt. I mean i didnt go out at all. So school started today, it was okaaaay. I was actually put into 4SDEDALI(wtheck right?) but i changed classes with someone so im in 4SCENGAL with Hui wei ^.^V The year wont be thaat bad now! Yeah, but yesterday i had like this mental breakdown. Idk about what cause school only started the next day. But yeah, i remembered asking God alot of questions about life and uhuh. I think yesterday was like the only time i cried since i got my results. Well, shit happens right? I just feel the need of a companion. Lol, cant believe i just said that :/ Been single for too long now, but i dont think i want a relationship. I dont really know what i want in life yet. I just want things to go smoothly i guess. Now with school and choir i dont think i'll be able to be in anything anyway so yeah.

2011-12-30T02:51:00.000+08:00

You're the reason why i hate myself.

An update.

2011-12-26T02:30:00.000+08:00

Hi thuuur,
so my holiday have been great! (: Went for a camp like 2 weeks ago and met alot of cool new friends! heheh. have been going out alot also recently :/ Before the camp, i went out with Shaun and Wen yang quite alot! I havent seen them in 2 weeks and i really miss themm :( anyways, after camp, i went out with like Kimberley Thong, Eu Lim, Jezzey, Ying Ye and Xiong Wei. Hui wei didnt get to join us most of the times cause she went to China :/ But yeah, had lots of fun going everywhere! heheh. Owhh and i also went out with Aaron, Yu Leong and Daniel a few times. Basically it was just these few people lah but i had loads of fun with them :') I cant believe that school is almost starting. Ughh, im really gonna miss going out EVERYDAY with all of them!
Oh and, MERRRY CHRISTMAS! one day late but hehehh :) Dont really have the mood to blog now so goodbyee ^.^V

2011-12-05T02:57:00.000+08:00

Yknow what's the suckiest feeling? Having to cheer someone up and lying to them. Trying to tell them that everything happens for a reason, that it'll all get better when even you yourself dont believe it. It sucks trying to make someone feel better when all you wished for was someone trying to do the same for you.

2011-11-29T23:27:00.001+08:00

So this is just one of those nights. Or maybe its just my mood swings cause i think my period is coming soon... Whatever it is, i hate it. I thought it stopped cause i've felt quite happy for these past few days but i way wrong. Im such a disappointment and i just feel that whatever i do, will only make people more disappointed. And the worse part is that i've seem to give up on trying to not be a failure. Its like failure all the way brooo~ The worse part is having no one. I feel really insecure when i talk to people because sometimes it feels like they dont really care or they are just pretending to give a shit or maybe im annoying the hell outta them or im just wasting their time. I feels like that ALL the time. Its like no one really listens? Im just sick and tired of living. Trying to fit into this world when i clearly dont. sigh, goodbye world.

High expectations

2011-11-26T02:38:00.000+08:00

Haaai there :} So my week has been fine. There wasnt that much drama this time so that's good right? Heheh. I'll tell you what happened anyway teehee!
Sunday ; went for lunch with mum, dad & grandma then went to Pyramid with Hui wei, Sam & Jenny :) Had fun at the arcade but we spend most of our time looking at clothes and walking around! Really miss them Monday ; Shaun's dad picked me and eu lim up then we went to his apartment in TTDI. Sun tanned abit so i have a bikini tan line! Heheh :B Went swimming and became a toy to the boys. Seriously, they bullied the shit outta me! Never gonna go swimming with them EVER again D:< But it was kinda fun when they werent throwing me around! After that we decided to just stay at Shaun's house. Bummed around there the whole time and had dinner there too! hehe, his mum is a great cook :B
Tuesday ; Shaun Lim and Wen yang came over to my house to bake! HAHAH. Before that we went to the supermarket to buy ice cream. Then we baked cookies, poppy chow and wen yang '''tried''' to make fried ice cream. HAHAHA. It was a fun day baking! Almost everything was a failure though! Our cookies got burned, the poppy chow was weird cause we used wheat biscuits instead of popcorn and the fried ice cream was just... HAHAHAH. It was good though! We made a few batches so it wasnt thaaat bad and we created a new drink and everything! It was a good and fun day even though the cleaning up took a looooong time! Haha :D Oh and we fell sick the next day.. no kidding
Wednesday ; Went to Haris' house to swim with Shoba, Aimran, Ian & Haris (duh). Had fun fighting and getting thrown in the pool! Hahah :D I had like a huge blue black on my leg when i got home though! But swimming was fun and idk why but i enjoyed the pushing each other down the most. NYEHEHEH ;D Had McD's then watched like a quarter of a movie cause me and Shoba had to go home early :( Left at like 3.30 so the rest of the day i just bummed around the house doing nothing.
Thursday ; WATCHED BREAKING DAWN! I just had to im sorry teehee! Hui wei picked me up and she didnt wanna tell me who was going and where we were going D:< But yeah, Leon dropped us at TC mall and in the end it was me and her watching it together! Heheh, i really miss our girlfriend moments lah! btw, breaking dawn was awesome! TEEHEE. Maybe not as awesome as i imagined it to be lah but it was still great! Cried like 3 times :} After the movie, me and hui wei met up with darren, irene & ted. We were mostly just walking around heheh. Went to a mamak then we walked to irene's apartment and checked out the pool. Got to meet new people so i guess that's good :) idk why i was quite moody that day though so i didnt even get to enjoy breaking dawn :(
Friday ; i did nothing. Seriously, no kidding. HAHAH, well i did run around the house catching and running away from Hercules! He ate Sara's hair and tried to eat her handbag :'D HAHAH, i love that dog! Then at night i had a talk with my papa and mama! Apparently they met each other when my mum was 23. They got married 5 years later and next year it'll be their 25th anniversary! Heheh, they may not be the lovey dovey type of parents but yeah its really cute knowing they've been in love for 30 years :3 And here i am not knowing if i would even get married! Sigh, life is hard... LIKE A ROCK HAHAHHAH i just had to :'D I love Henry chow!

So yeah! That was practically my week. This weekend is gonna be kinda boring though :/ But at least i dont really think that much anymore. Not gonna get into any emo shit now! Hahah, oh right! So im supposed to blog about the ''''''awesome'''''' Ian Low! Had kind of a deep talk about life with him just now... HAHAHHA. But yeah, he said that he's bored of life and he was talking about dying and all just now. I dont think i'd ever admit this to his face but if he were dead, alot of people would miss him including me and not only his parents. (you better not kembang, ian) Hahah, but yeah. Life will get much more interesting! So dont be emo nemoooo~ Oh and if you want reasons why you should stay alive, you can always ask me okay :B I dont get why i try to convince everyone around me that there is much more to life when i, myself dont believe that. Lol, i guess i'll just stay forever screwed uppp. Hehe, okay i have to sleep now! OWH WAIT, before i sleep, CHERYL SOO IS AN AWESOME GIRL PREN THAT I LOVE AND SHE IS FOREVER CUTE ^.^V HEHE. Im sorry its not long enough! Love you long time :* Goodnight!

Wreck

2011-11-23T02:21:00.000+08:00

So what are we? Fooling around and making empty promises. Im just really confused right now. Is this what normal people do? What friends do? I cant help feeling like im just one of the girls. Am i?

bread & pepper

2011-11-20T11:14:00.000+08:00

Hihi :B Sooo, life since my last post wasnt thaaat bad! Or maybe its because im in a cheerful mode now! So yesterday was the last impact :( The committee did a really great job! It was like cluedo but the human version. And it was way harder obviously! We had to like do all sorts of weird and hard things. We even had to drink the most disgusting drink :S it was like banana, mayo, chili sauce, celery & ladies finger blended with very, very little water and we had to drink it! I felt like barfing when i drank it. Tasted like poop and the celery made everything worse D: i seriously dont know how xiong wei drank it cause he drank the most i think! So yeah, it was lots of fun! then, went for dinner at Bangsar with wenyang, shaun, hui wei, eu lim, ian & xiong wei. The fun part was the car rides cause like 7 people had to fit into a small car so i had to sit on wen yang's lap! Hahah! Super uncomfortable and my ass had cramps no kidding. But it was fun! We had dinner at some restaurant called Ben something and then we had deserts at Alexis. i felt like such a jakun cause it was my first time exploring Bangsar. Teehee, yeah! My grandma is at my house now so later we're gonna go for lunch then im going to Pyramid with Jen, Hui wei, Sam & Shobs! WOOHOO girls day out ^.^V i feel quite bad though cause Jen didnt want to invite someone else so yeah :/ Anywayyys, im gonna watch tv now! Life of a sad gurl. Bai ♥

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Weak world

2011-11-18T01:15:00.000+08:00

You're a jackass and idk why i even believed your crap once upon a time. Yknow what, im glad of the decisions i made because if it werent for them, i wouldnt have seen your true colours. I always knew you were mean but i always thought you didnt mean whatever you said. I actually thought that you were nice but i guess that joke was on me right? Its not like i cared at all about what you did, its not like it didnt hurt me at all, its not like i cried about it, its not like you ever cared. Forget all the time we spent together cause i sure as hell want to forget them. Just when i thought things were different then i realized that you're the same person i met 2 years ago. Why is it so hard to convince myself to hate you? I know the minute you say something i'll believe it. I dont know why i'm just so weak.

My day was fun & i had a great time at the orphanage with the little kids. They certainly reminded me about how blessed i am. Even though they are orphans, they seem really happy :) But yeah had a fun day bumming around the house with Kev watching tv and going for walks hehhe. Owh right, im supposed to blog about this lame dude named Ian Kit Low :P LOLJK he's a nice guy who has agreed to watch Breaking Dawn with me wooohoooo! But he hates twilight D:< what a loser right psshhht. Teehee! Apparently he makes everything in the world happy, and he's like rainbows & unicorns! AHAHAHA. Omgosh! Brb, laughing my ass off. HEHEHE KBAI :*

2011-11-17T00:47:00.001+08:00

i just want to disappear.

Northern lights (:

2011-11-15T03:29:00.000+08:00

Heey! Whaddup whaddup :D So its a Tuesday and its 3.30am now! Well, nothing much happened. Yesterday i went to watch immortals and then went for karoake with Wen Yang, Shaun, Hui wei & Ivan :D I think i seriously damaged my vocal thingy in my throat. I can only sing like low notes now D:< i might be an alto or sop 2 next year :( sigh. Karaoke is never good for me lah. I end up screaming more then singing! But yeah, had loads of fun jumping, dancing and screaming ♥ Haha, after that went for lunch and i tried my first chatime! I dont get why everyone is crazy about it. Taste normal to meee. LOL. Anywayy, papa came home today!His flight got delayed so he came back like at 12am. He brought home lots of food but im gonna restrain myself from eating them. At least not all. Just ate a bag of salt and vinegar chips! WHY DID THEY HAVE TO TASTE SO BLOODY GOOD?! D: shit man i am so screwed! I lost a kg but i think i just gained it back just now. What is my life sigh. OHOH, i love 4 songs from the breaking dawn soundtrack! Im guessing one of them is from the wedding but siggggghhhh. I cant wait! 9 more days and i think im gonna watch it alone lah. Cause i dont have any hardcore twilight fans to watch with so it wont be as fun :( Forever aloneeee
Anywayys, im going to play tennis with wen yang, hui wei & shaun tomorrow! Wen yang is gonna teach us how to play heheheh! I dont know how to play at all though so i'll probably look like a dumbo/bimbo. Great! Oh right, i had a nice talk with shoba on friday! Looks like we know our plan for the future already 8D And on Sunday, Shaun picked me up from my house and i went to PJEFC to watch wen yang's baptism! I cant believe that small boy is all grown up now :') Hahah, no more epic night for us. Heheh, after that i went out for lunch with like a big bunch of ppl from PJEFC. Really nice people :) Im so screwed man, going out too much. I know how mad he'll get if i dont go out with him but i dont think im making smart choices. In the end, someone will get hurt.

The pieces dont fit anymore.

2011-11-11T04:09:00.000+08:00

Haai (: So its 11.11.11
Well, it just sounds fancy but guess what? its just a normal screwed up day. Soo yeah life has been normaal~ I think i go out a little too much nowdays. I dont get why i even try. It actually takes a lot of effort to force a smile on my face every time i go out and pretend to the world that im fishing happy. Sometimes i really am but i just cant explain why its nothing is enough. Why YOU're not enough. I've met alot of guys but none of them seem to be the type of guy i'd expect myself to be with. I know that i should be happy if i even get a guy on the street but yeaah. Its different now, im too picky. Its either im too picky or guys are seriously becoming more asshole-ish. Then again, there's no such thing as a prince charming or a 'perfect guy'. Well, whatever lah. I should just stay single? i know how lonely it gets though. Being lonely is unavoidable and it should be something i should get used to right? Okay maybe im just in an emo mood noww. Hahahahahaha dayum im funny.
Moi Ku was someone really special for all of us. She was seriously the nicest person in the world! She always had this loving attitude and she was really close to my grandma. I remember when she would come to our houses when she visited Malaysia and she would always bring back like chocolates for us! and we would go for family dinners together. It sucks knowing that someone so nice,kind and loving as her could go. Its unfair,its bloody unfair. What did she do? She reminded me so much of my grandma and its just painful i guess. The ceremony is tmr and i cant be there cause im all the way here in Malaysia. Hopefully everyone there is doing fine :/ i know how many lives she touched and im sure jenn and michelle would be worse. i'll definitely miss you Moi Ku ♥

All over again ♥

2011-10-31T01:45:00.000+08:00

Hai (: So, i've had a great week! I dont think i've had as much fun in these past few days! Haha, so yeaah. i wish i could blog about it but my blog is not like in private but i doubt anyone reads it so screw it! Well, i dont know how to say it. My life feels screwed up! I dont know who i like anymore. And recently i have this like thing going on and i talked about it to Him but i dont think we are gonna really like last? He makes me feel happy when im with him but everything is just different when we're not with each other. He dosent trust me. And i know how things will end up with him but yeah. Idk what is wrong with me ugggh :S i think i should just be single forever! Im not sure if i like him or that i've just given up on someone else. It may seem like im such a player but im not. I just dont know who to trust. I dont know who would end up screwing me over and i really dont want to go thru it again even though i know its unavoidable. I just dont want to get hurt again. As much as i keep telling myself that i dont deserve a nice guy, i still WANT one :/ Im sucha retard lol. Okay! I'll tell you about my day/week and the guys im talking about is one of em except 2 other ones... HAHA.

So on Monday i went to 1U and watched Paranormal activity 3 TWICE! The first time i watched it, i was as scared as balls and the people next to me did not help... HAHA. So i went to watch that movie with Tony and Darryl which last minute wanted to watch it. Heh. It was funny cause the guys were more scared and i thought both of them were wusses until i watched it the second time with Shaun and Eu lim -.- Both of them are just.... Eu lim got so scared he hit his head on my face like 2 times and he literally THREW my bag to cover his eyes -.- HAHAHA. And Shaun was like grabbing my hand he hardly watched the movie. He was like cursing most of the time and in the end both of them were like 'Naah, it wasnt scary' when they probably shat in their pants while watching that movie. HAHAHA. but yeah, that was definitely a good day :D
On friday i went to KL! Actually Berjaya Time Square only because everywhere else was too hot for Shaun -.- We could not even shop because Eu lim and Shaun wouldn't shut up! We watched a movie called In Time cause hui wei wanted to watch it! It was actually quite nice! Had lots of fun lah walking around and looking at things :D
Then on Saturdayyy! This day tops everything! First we went hiking at Sungai Chiling! It was our form thing so it was just us and the faci's like Trisha, Kevin, Ian, Shin Lin, Hui Wei, Shaun, Josh, Tim, Ken Vyn and myself. It was a great place! Something that we should definitely do more often! (Y) Had a great time bonding and helping each other! Even swam in the river for awhile and the waterfall was pretty (: Haha, the car rides were fun also! We ate, joked around and sang! Then after the trip me, hui wei and Ian went back to Shaun's house then we went to Ian's house and then to Wen Yang's to pick him up :D We had dinner at jaya 1 then we went for the Planetshakers concert! It was amazing! Had a great time jumping and just worshipping God :) I dont think i've ever jumped so much in my life! Hahaha! I've also never seen PJECF so full before! The main sanc was filled with people and everyone was just jumping and the band was great! I think that it was a really great sight. Watching people worship God and just praising him :') God works wonders (: After the concert, a few of us went for supper at MJ cafe and stayed there till like 1am then we went home :D It was a super tiring but fun day! I was out for like 17 hours that day. AHHAHA but yeah it was fun and totally worth it :) So its like 2.30am and im supposed to go to school tmr. HEHEHE. Owwwh, i had a hair cut! I think i look like a bimbo! And yknow what they say, blondes have more fun! I dont know how this applies cause im not blond but wtv. HAHAHAHA :P I know what wen yang would have said if he saw that :B

lawl

2011-10-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

Hai. So yeaaah. Life sucks~
i dont really know whats wrong with my mood now. But its screwed up that's one thing i know. I just feel like crying n crying n cryinng cause yknow crying is fun. UGHH i dont know what wrong with me okay! I mean its me first of all, then my friends. I'm really starting to doubt them. And i dont think i have any to begin with so why bother right? I feel so invisible. Its like im in a room filled with everyone and no one sees me. And im just sitting there in a corner crying while everyone is just doing their own shit. Well, i guess that's what loners do right? woohoo. just fml. Bye

Under the stars

2011-10-19T04:04:00.000+08:00

Haaai :) It feels like i've betrayed my blog cause i havent done much blogging. I wish i could say that i was too busy going out everyday and all night long but i have not. Hahaha. Seriously, out of all the times i've been out, i think the most fun i had was when i went out with Kev. Or when i went for karaoke with the Kok's. How great is my life?! Lol. I just had something waaay more fun planned out in my head and i guess that just made everything worse. So today all i did was sit at home and watch tv. Followed kev out today and had lunch. Its kinda awkward cause it was around the time when school ended so all the schooling kids (like i'm not one of them hehe) went to McD's and i was sitting at one of those table for 2 with Kev. I guess all of them assumed i was his girlfriend or smth cause there was a women giving me the 'stare' LOL. But i guess i've always wanted to date someone like my brother. But obviously NOT my brother! Someone LIKE my brother. Are there any guys out there? Which are my type... LOL. Enough with the boy talk!
So PMR was okay i guess. I found BM really,really hard and i remember that awful feeling i had after the exam. I actually cried on the way home and when i reached home. I just felt like a total disappointment and a failure. But then again that's what i am so har har har. I dont even bother thinking or wishing that i got an A for it cause i know how badly i did. I just hope i didnt fail or else i'd have to retake form 3 (as if this year didnt suck enough) The rest of the papers were okay except KH. It was actually quite hard for me. but for ME. Sigh, i hope i at least get 5 A's. Fine fine, 4? Failure #1.
Then, there is my piano exaaaam. Ikr, PMR just ended and here i am talking about ANOTHER exam. Well, i bought my grade 8 pieces and scales book. Most of the songs are 6 pages long! And i'm even learning a song which is 8 pages long! Someone kill me now D: I seriously dont know how am i even going to get through with this especially since teacher sylvia isnt teaching me next year :( Im really gonna miss her. One of the teachers that i could tell everything to and she even thought me since i was 7! How am i going to live :(
There's also this thing about bio ,add maths and all changing to BM next year. Wow, as if my BM isnt bad enough you want me to write essays about bio in BM?! Its like ASKING me to purposely fail a paper! Honestly, not trying to butt into any political shit but its really, really unfair that they want to just suddenly change everything to BM. I've learned every single shit in english for the past 9 years and you expect me to re-learn a whole bunch of new shit for 2 years then go back to english for college?! That is plain dumbass if you ask me. If i have to learn everything in BM and since i KNOW i am going to fail. I think i'll just run to like Australia and wash plates! I see a brighter future doing THAT then failing SPM. Sometimes people think its so yknow funny to play with someone's future. Well guess what! Its no shittin funny so stop bs-ing and dont change anything.
Damn, that felt good. HAHAHAHA. Maybe i should be a lawyer. No?
i dont really know what i want to become. But i just see myself doing something which involves science and/or maths. Or just be a housewife. Hahaha! Best job ever (Y) So yeaah, i hope i'll actually do something yknow beneficial. And i actually plan on losing weight but everytime i want to go to the gym, kev keeps putting it off and says he's lazy or smth. His abs are gone! POOF! i dont know how to exercise on my own at home and i cant run cause Hercules tires out quickly so he cant take even 2 rows! My dog is too fat and lazy! :O Aah, i think i should end my post here. I'll try my best to keep my blog alive :)
Last but not least,
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13 ♥

2011-10-02T17:58:00.001+08:00

Someone please kill me, lol i'm not even kidding. Ugghhhh
PMR is in 2 days and i feel shit balls scared. Kill me before i take it pleaseeeeeeeee! Omgosh its really scaring the shit outta me. Gonna do BM now. Bye

hehehehi

2011-09-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

So yeah, Hi :D
PMR is in 1 week so idk why im blogging... Oh right, it was to releaseeee stress! PMR is scaring the shit outta me. Seriously, i've never felt so scared! Besides my piano exams lah but my piano exams are only like a few minutes so its not THAAAT bad! This one is like for 1 week :( shit man i wanna kill myself right now. Someone please push me in front of a car! DD: HAHAHA, okay that was kind of funny. Only hui wei or shaun would understand. LOLOL.
Did i mention that its 1.30am and i still need to bathe? Hehe, whoops! Not going to school tomorrow so yeah. I feel so ughhh-ee. Idk how to explain it! God, i think i need help. Been going to the library alot... yeah. And its always crowded cause i guess its a very popular one. I meant the TTDI one lol. The weird thing is that i was really hyper and happy just now but right now i feel like poop. Seriously, it feels like there's nothing to hope for in life right now. Eeee, i dont want to start being emo and shit and start crying. It takes up alot of time so yeah bai <3

2011-09-15T23:06:00.001+08:00

WADDDDUPPPPPPPPPPPPP, hehe. so yeah hi.
No time to blog now because yknow. Pmr is like in less than 20 days. Hehehe. LIFE IS GREAT! Lol jk. I feel really lazy to blog but i'll just post pictures about what i've been doing. Okay? TOO BAD YOU'LL HAVE TO LOOK AT IT YOU AINT GOT A CHOICE. Lol, hehehe. That's what you get for reading. If anyone even reads. *cricketsounds* I think i'm quite high now cause i just drank my longan drink! ITS THE BOMB I TELL YOU! And the lady who sells it is normally at almost every pasar malam! She sells it in this HUGE container but it is damn good you HAVE to buy it! What are you waiting for?! GO GO GO!! HEHE. If Amanda says its good means it is. i think :D HEHE
Okay, so here are my pictures :*

This was when i went to PD during the holidays! HEHE

Gotta love Sejarah. LOL JK EWWW.
Idk why i cant upload the recent pictures :( Sorry, you'll just have to be stuck with this retarded ones. Anyway, gonna continue studying now. Hehe bai.

Lifeless

2011-08-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hai blog! Its been a longgggg time!
But i guess its really a big advantage to have a blog. Because yknow people like me have nobody so can only type/talk/pour out my feelings here.
So yeah, trials just ended! Partyyyyy! LOL jk no. I think its gonna be worse now cause they'll be giving us back our papers with our MARKS. our MARKS, MARKS!(if i could make it bigger i would) Haha, so yeah. Mum will definitely kill me! Got back my Geo marks. Horrible like crap #$%@&@# so frikkin pissed off. Study, dont study also marks like shit. What's the point of studying -.- My mum will kill me. I know that getting straight A's and all is important but actually i dont study for my grades. I mean like 50% is for my grades but the other 50% is for my mum. My mum has like really high hopes for my grades and everything idk why. i mean, WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU EXPECT GOOD GRADES FROM YOUR STUPID DAUGHTER?! its just really pressuring and stressful. It feels like im being such a failure every single frikkin time and it does not feel nice. Oh yeah, i also gained like 3kg's because of trials. Well, its my fault lah actually but i can only study if i'm chewing something D:< I dont know how to lose the weight that i have put on. Feel like just killing myself man.
Okay, haha, that was the sucky part of my week. Now to the things which made me happyyyyy. I got to spend time with him this week. And we talked quite alot :) i think... haha yeah. But i dont think of him that way, just like a more than a friend kind of thing. LOL wthell am i talking. But yeah, not gonna have high hopes cause i know what it'll end up being like. Owhh anddd, i went to the gym today! And i have been swimming too for the past 3days :D That's gotta help on the losing weight part i hope :/ Have to go to the gym more! Gonna watch gossip girl than siiing. LOL, i have to perform tomorrow for Pn.Yeap's retirement :/ well, that's all!
you know you love me. XOXO, gossip girl. TEEHEE i just love doing that! BAAAAI!

you wont believe me

2011-07-29T02:03:00.001+08:00

I wish you cared. It was different last time and its different now. In a bad way. I thought you understood, someone who i could tell everything to. I thought i found someone who would make me a better person. Guess i was wrong like how i am always wrong about guys. I mean the guys i meet. They don't care, never really did.

a friend

2011-07-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

i wish i could tell someone how much pain im going thru. How much it hurts to breathe. But then again,who would understand or care right?
i want out.

awefrikkinsome

2011-07-08T00:52:00.001+08:00

I feel like a screw up. Seriously, cant life go MY way for once?! JUST FOR FRIKKIN ONCE. I have so much homework piling up, my stupid piano exam TOMORROW, Subang parade competition, musical night production, my grades are getting lower, BLOODY PMR and i havent even started studying and its like 85 more days. OMGOSH SOMEONE FRIKKIN KILL ME NOW MAN. Wtf is life. Seriously. Im trying to keep calm but i cant cant! I seriously wished i had someone, just someone i can tell EVERYTHING to without being judged, without being looked weirdly at, just to listen you know. They dont even have to give some long speech back. I just want someone to listen :( Yes, i know my life is very sad. If your life so is frikkin good then dont have to read this okay. I know im being a bitch but i seriously hate people who think they are so cool. TOO cool for everyone in the world go live in the frikkin north pole lah! Im sorry :( I just wished that my life is perfect but then again, who's life is right? God gave me this life for a reason. I just wished i knew what my purpose was so i could do it and just get this life over with :/ I know that was really selfish but is life really worth living if you hate every minute of it? Its worse now, it feels like i have no one. At all. I guess that's what happens when you have a sad life right? Ha ha ha ha ha ha. okay. Bai.

Undescribable, uncontainable
you place the stars in the sky
and you know them by name.
You are amazing God ♥

hahahhaha

2011-06-21T22:33:00.001+08:00

HI,
so yeah. Havent blogged for awhile. Been really like busy/tired. Anywaay, i had a really like rough week. Idk if it was bad, maybe im just in a bad mood now? SO yeah, i feel so disappointed. Mostly at myself la so yeah. My results really suck, my piano exam is coming up super soon like in 3 weeks, there is like 3 weeks left more to subang parade and most of the competition people are like not coming for practices. I really dont know how to ask them to come! Most of them are my friends and i dont know whether to believe all their excuses or not. ARGH. Seriously seriously seriously FML.
My trial also sucked like crap, it even ruined my whole day so yeahh. Gotta love lyf. Been having not enough sleep also so i look like a monster and im eating daaaamn alot so yeah. WOOHOOO, sad,fat,ugly gurl. okay, bye (:

Deny

2011-06-05T17:51:00.000+08:00

HEYYY!
So i just came back from camp! Impact camp that is! It was super awesome! I think this camp has really changed me. I mean its only been 2 days but i'll try my hardest to do my devotion and read the bible everyday. I desperately need an AP :( Okay, so yeah! Our speaker for those 5 days was pastor Steven Low! All his sessions are so interesting! And he also like has many jokes which makes us actually listen :D He's very funny also! Hehehe :D So yeah, i really thank God because i had the opportunity to go for this camp. I've learned so much from my dorm mates, my group, my friends and most of all the faci's (: Somehow after this camp i feel closer to God in ways that i cant explain. I feel happier also now idk why! See how amazing God is! Haha :D Okay, so yeah. Oh, i really want to thank Shin Lin,James Lim,Wen Yang, Shaun Lim, Yen Ping, Leon Lai, all my dorm mates(Kimberly,Joyce,Yi Fen,Jasmine and Trisha), James Lee,Leon Lai and everyone la :D Haha, they made camp really fun and i also shared alot with all of them so yeah (: Camp was for 5 days but it still feels like its too short. Siggh, haha :D Yesterday i went for impact and everyone was sharing about their camp experiences! It was so great to hear how this camp has changed so many other people also (: It was form discussion yesterday though. For the first time our form had no awkward silences! Haha, we had extra faci's there like Zhi Ling, James Lee and Ken Vyn. They did most of the talking la. Haha :D Shaun came for impact too! WOOHOO! After that i went out with Wen yang and Shaun to have dinner and we were supposed to watch a movie but instead we went 'shopping' and then to snowflake. Hehehe :D Hui wei was MIA though :( And tomorrow we MIGHHT go to Broga Hill to hike. HAHA, Shaun's crazy idea. The way shaun drives is SUPER scary i tell you! Especially if you sit in front right, omgoshhh! HAHA
so yeah, so far my holidays have been really, really good (: Hopefully it'll stay that way. Byeee ♥

No.

lies

2011-05-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

HI! So yeah, Went to Putrajaya today!
So at like 6.15am hui wei picked me up then we went to school! We took the bus to Putrajaya :D It was the National Youth day or smth like that. Surprisingly, i had fun! Hehehe :D Was with Syaira and Alia most of the time! Hehe, we were like three hyper girls cheering for everyone and walking around. HAHA :D So yeah, came back at 2ish then went to Hui wei's house! Hui wei didnt wanna go for impact so i followed hui ying there. Worship was awesome! Like seriously, i felt the presence of God in that room and everyone was like seriously worshiping! Worship leader was Nat so yeah. Haha :D Then, there were like the reverends and pastor aaron asked them questions and all. It was practically a talk about gays and lesbians la. Haha, it was awkward.. but i guess it helped! Yknow especially since im in a girls school. Haha :D But yeah, i guess thats all! Im really sleepy now but i hv so much work to do and later there's the championship finals or something like that so i wanna watch. Hehehe. Ikr, since when was i into football. Lol :O GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!
so,im in my parents room now. And i was just about to call my mum and ask her why she wasnt home yet then i realized that they went for that stupid hiking trip. Argh! Miss them :( Mum called me just now and she told me that the climb was hard.D: But at least she made it up there! Hopefully they are alright :/
Okay, gonna sleep (hopefully) now! nights lovelies ♥

i reaally want to forget you

emotionless

2011-05-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hi! So yeah, hi.
I dont really know what to blog about but yeah. Hercules is getting huger! And yeah.
Today i had lots of fun in school! It was the teacher's day celebration so like yeah. Was singing and dancing alot. Hehe, i think the whole school thinks im a weirdo now so weehee. But yeah. Hehe :D Ohjulabibu ♥ Spent the whole day with Feli, Fifi, Shobs and Hui wei. Haha, all the people i love (:
So yeaah! After that, me, mum, dad and Kev went for lunch. Then i helped mum pack again cause her bag was BLOODY heavy! And she wants to climb a frikkin mountain with a 10kg bag -.- craaazy! I felt so sad when i saw mum and dad enter the car. Siggh, i miss them already :( Im such a brat i know. Sorrry la, i dont like it when my mum and dad are gone D:< I wont see them until NEXT friday. Oh greatt. So now its just me, Kev and Sara at home. WOOHOO. Party! Loljk. Im gonna sleep in my parents room! Hehe.So yeah, i seriously dont know what to blog about. I dont think i want to rant about my sad sad life here so yeah. Bye!

i wish i could forget you

i am a cow

2011-05-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

HI. so im just blogging cause yeah. HEHE
Today i feel happy! (: well, at least for now! Hehe
my family makes me happy! Especially the KOK's. Love them laah! So yeah, just had dinner with them! It was uncle tony's birthday so we celebrated at saujana resort! DAAAAMN, that hotel is damn cun. HAHA, sorry la. Jakun abit okay. Its like an ordinary hotel but like that whole area is damn nice! Its for super rich families i think. I feel so jealous :( i wonder how it would feel like to live there! So funnn! Hehe. We had like a barbeque buffet. YES, BUFFET. Shit man, ate alot. HAHAHA. I FEEL LIKE A COW. Scratch that, i AM a cow! OMGOSHHH, i feel so guilty for eating so much! But the food was ama-za-zingg. I ate all types of weird cheese, ice-creams, this pancake thingy and cakes! AHHH. HEHE. i promise to not eat tomorrow. at least i'll try :( i think i'll only last until dinner. sighh, i really need to go to the gym! A.S.A.P! nobody to bring me :( Sighh, well. Yeah had a great time! Hehe. Gossiped a little bit! Becky and Monic's CF are having their camp together! So fun rightt? :(
Ooh, so today i went shopping with my mum! Hehe, we went to subang parade cause i was shopping for my school. HAHA, there's this competition thingy. for every RM1 you spend you get to collect 1 point for your school! Hehe. So yeah. I'M really happy cause i bought a PINK shorts! YAYY! HEHE. i cant wait to wear it out! So now i have a pink shorts and 3 quarters pants. Im in love with my shorts now! Sighhh, cant wait to wear it out! <3 Even kev said its cute! HEHE
Yknow, now my best friend is my brother. Like seriously! He helps me study, he teaches me, he studies WITH me, we do all sorts or stupid stuffs together! i hate him so much though. He's an ass. HAHAHA, that is how much i love him! He's like a boyfriend i wish i had. Hahaha! Aww, im sucha nice sister :'D HEHE. So yeah!
thats alll! I just have a few things to say to youuuu two.
firstly, you are an ass. I was feeling really sad that day and i said something about something so you had to reply it with something hurtful? you are definitely not the guy i fell in love with. screw you.
next, since when were you always there for me? you never were okay so shut up.
My life would be so much greater without these two people so i would like to get them out of my life (: Bye!

CANT WAIT FOR IMPACT CAMPPPPP!

Its all fiction

2011-05-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

hi! So yeah,
exams are oveerr! Woohoo. Wheee. i should be happy but idk why im not. Exams, eventhough they are a pain in the arse, its my way of like getting away from the world. And i had an excuse yknow, exams. But now, when its over it feels like i have to go back to that sad life of mine. Argh, idk what to say. its like im angry, but i dont have a reason to be angry and im sad when im supposed to be happy. Im a very messed up person okay, im sorry. So yeah, idk why but im like more emotional now. Okay, ive been emotional for a long time -.- its like i dont really laugh anymore. or smile. Its like i cannot cope with everything. There's too much stress! and as much as i study, it feels like its never enough. sometimes it feel like im about to die, but yeah. Okay, i know i am a very screwed up person and im weird. im sorry D:
Soooo, hercules is getting fatter! Like seriously, i think he weighs like 10kg now -.- when we got him 2 week ago, he was 5kg! bringing him to the vet soon. Idk how in the world am i going to sit in the car with him! Haha. His teeth is also sharper! It hurts when he bites now :( And he poops ALOT. i think he pooped 4 times today! AHHAHA. he's so naughty but idk why i love him. He listens to me! Hehe, so far, all he can do is sit. HAHAHA. Sit only -.- he growls alot though! Scarryyy.
why am i talking about him? HAHA, shit. i hope im not being those type of crazy dog owners. HAHAHA! so yeaaah. Imma sad person. that's all i wanted to say. BYEEEE :D

there might be something real between us two (:

2011-05-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

HI! So yeah, i havent blogged in a longg time. And i actually feel really to blog so this will be short with pictures to explain everything! Hehe. Oh, exams started on Friday so yeah. No time to go online! I think i should be studying now D: So yeah. Hmmm, well, i felt like killing myself 5 times this week! All because of my exams, my stupidstupid screwed up BM paper2 and piano! UGHH, i hate life to the max now man. So yeah, been so busy lately with the hercules! He's a rottweiler, 2+months old and bloody naughty! He likes to growl alot! Especially when you bathe him. He likes to be pampered, he likes biting EVERY SINGLE SHIT HE CAN FIND and he likes his milk. HAHAHA. Okay, so yeah. gonna study study study now! UGHH, 1more week to go till freedom! Oh yeah, i had fun at impact today (: Hehe, okay byee ♥

Look what i foundd! <3

Hihi beliebers

2011-04-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

HII, so yeah. i'm kinda like 1 belieber now! I mean if last time i was bad, now i am WAAAAAAY worse! I LISTEN,SING,DANCE,CRY to his songs! HAHA. Now i know why so many girls are crazy about him. He is like super nice! His songs are so touching, his voice is to die for and his looks. Pheww, where do i start. Hahahha! Okay, i think that one over abit. HAHA. But yeah, Selena Gomez is so lucky! But she's pretty also, so i guess they are like meant to be together la.
*BACK TO REALITY*
MPPH was fun! I was a bit moody and teacher was like.. to tell you the truth i wanted to slap her. LOL. She was SUPER,ASS mean to Farah! Cause she was singing the solo part for a song and she kinda got mixed up so she didnt sing ONE word and teacher like scolded her. WTF man. Seriously teacher? -.- Be grateful that she sang the solo part la! Teacher is like so not supportive man. Thank God Pn.Tan is back! She went for a surgery at singapore. But i hope she's well now! (:
After MPPH, i went for impact! Okay, i was like loner to the max. We watched Passion of Christ! Now i remember why i didnt like that movie. It was super touching, no doubt. I cried like crazy. Haha :D So yeaaah, then i went for Easter service at PJEFC! It was nice! The performances were nice! (: After that, i went to the curve with hui wei! We went for Afreena's farewell surprise lunch. We left a little early to go watch Never say never! That show was ama-za-zing. SERIOUSLY! EVERYONE should watch it! It shows how being someone like justin bieber is not all partying. Its like tiring, yknow. So yeah. Hahaha, i had a great time with Farah Amran,Hui Wei & Ungku (: I definitely need to go out waaaaaay more! i've lost contact with all my old friends. but i dont think they even bother trying to keep contact anyway so yeah...
Ohh! Im gonna get rid of all eletronical devices and change my facebook password on JULY! or august. HAHA. i cant make up my mind! I think i might die. but yeaaah. I just need to do well for PMR! if i dont, idk what to say to myself. So yeah, must try my hardest! I've even made up my mind to forget about you. Cause yknow what, you're just not that into me. And i can see that so why bother trying right? Haha (: Okie, that's all. I wanna do my Geo kerja kursus! That's what i said last time but look how that turned out. Hahahah :D SERIOUSLY NOW! BYEEEEEEEE!

that should be me ♥

i owe it all to you (:

2011-04-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

HEYYY!
OMG! So yesterday was Justin Bieber's concert! IT WAS FUH-REA-KING AWESOME! Like seriousslyyy! I love him much, much more now! AHHH! The one less lonely girl was soooooo lucky! Soo, i went to school. Then after school, i followed iman to her house with Farah and Hannan. Iman's house is damn cool! Haha :D So yeah, got ready and everything there then we left for stadium merdeka! It started raining! So the lined up at the Yellow zone but but me and Hannan was different zone so i waited somewhere for a few friends. It started raining like super heavily! And i was waiting for Felicia but she went in before she saw me -.- But while i was lining up, i saw Farah Roslan and Alia so i just lined up with them :D After awhile, i got like super wet! But in the end we got raincoats so yeah! Hehe, then Shaun came with Yu leong and Daniel Ho. Lined up with them blablablabla then Hui wei came! So we stood somewhere during the whole concert! It was super awesome seriously! I cant believe i hated him last time! OMG! And Yu Leong is now a belieber :'D HEHE. So yeah! After that, we were supposed to take the LRT back with shaun and all but something happened so me, farah and hui wei just took the monorail to KL sentral then we met up with Xiong wei! :D We wanted to take the LRT back but it was closed already :( So we took a cab back then we went to Meng Tien for awhile. And Farah stayed at my house! HAHA. Epiccc, she became Amanda for a day ;D But yeah! I had a great time (:
And i slept around 2am cause we only reached home at like 1am! HAHAHA. Went to school and had raptai the WHOLEEEE day! OMGOSHH! I cant believe MPPH is tomorrow! I think the choir is ready. i THINK. #praying
so yeah, but the baju this year is so pretty! i loike it very,very much! Hehe. So maybe after school tomorrow, i'll go for impact! Cause today is good friday! I would have gone to church but i had tuition :O So yeaah, cant wait for tomorrow! Hope i wont be a loner at impact :/ Gonna go bathe then prepare everything for tomorrow! Excited like crazy! Hehe, goodnighttt <3

You cant tell me what to do, you're not my boyfriend anymore.

someday we'll know ,

2011-04-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just blogging now cause.. Idk why. Haha, i'm supposed to be going to sleep by now but i guess a blog post wont hurt :P Hehe, so i just watched this show called the blind side! It was superrrr touching i tell you. Can cry your eyes out! so now imma bit emo. Not exactly emo la, more like a wake up call. I know i've changed. I've been like more. Idk how to say. I just feel like i act without thinking nowadays. But sometimes i really,really dont feel sorry for what i've said. Im tired of being stepped on. People telling me what to do, some people just say bad things to me and when they need a friend, they come up to me and expect me to forget everything. I know we are all supposed to forgive & forget. But you cant do that all the time. That's what i've been doing. I've been just putting behind all my past, trying to forget every single hurtful thing that someone has did/said to me. And instead of them feeling bad about it, i am the one feeling sad/bad. This all happened when i came to Sri Aman. I mean, i love SA to bits but i think that std.6 Kampung tunku girl was much better. She had friends who she loved, a super great boyfriend, an awesome guy bestfriend, an awesome girl bestfriend, good grades, played her piano everyday, hardly lied to her parents about going out, went to church every sunday, but the best part of all was that she had friends who was there for her. I love my 6R gang ♥ i know its very lame but seriously, idc. When i was std.6 i never had any enemies (ithink). My life was perfect. But now, everything just makes me want to kill myself or cry. I've had 3 mental breakdowns this year. And its only the middle of April! Can you imagine. What happens when PMR is near? or the piano exam comes? or when we have a choir competition & everything is screwed up? i might just lose it. Arghh, i think ive gone nuts. Tanjung Rambutan seems like a nice home to me now :/ Im really glad i got everything off my chest! i truly feel better now (: a blog should definitely be recommended for everyone! Haha. Oh, please dont think i was bragging or anything abt my std.6 life. Just yknow, letting out my feelings (: i really, really hope that whoever that's reading this, wont judge me for who i am. cause if you did, you really suck. Haha, okay byee (:

Boys & Girls ♥

2011-04-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hihihhihihihhhihihihiihihihi, So yeah HI :D
I just finished baking my tart! HEHE, okay okay, i meant me, Kevin's and Sara's tart! Seee, at least i mentioned them right! Surely those asses will say only sara or kev did it -.- Those selfish bitchessss! HAHAHAHA :D Okay, so you see. My family is uhmm, how do you say. DIFFERENT. We communicate with like 'bad' words! I know its like we have no Moral but when we are not at home, we sangat-sangat bermoral okay! Haha :D That's just the way we are 8D So all you ppl who think we are rude well, who are you to judge huhh? Punch you then you know! Hehe, kiddingg :D
Sooo, we took like 7 hours to bake the tarts! HAHAH. future bakers! HEHEHE
OMGOMG! THE OC SONG IS ON FLYFM RIGHT NOWWW! I LOVE FLY FM!
Haha, just ended. Okay. Sooooo, tomorrow i'm going to DJ's IU day. I think im gonna be super sesat there :/ And tomorrow we're having the normal Kok family dinner at my house! Super scared! Cause this is our first time without a maid. So like must clean the house and stuff. :S So yeaaah. i had a great week! I was quite emo some of the says but i think i feel fine now :D Hehe, hyper abit also! so yeah, i kinda like my class now! Still quite loner during Moral but quite okay now (: I've been having weird dreams though! And i also have food poisoning so today i didnt go to school. Heh. But i slept like super alot today! HAHAHAHHA, Kevin is damn funny! He used him webcam to see if his pimples was visible but to me it looked like he was camwhoring. AHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. OMG. LMAO now! Serious shit! Stupid la kev, seriously sometimes i think he's younger then me. HAHAHA Bab's 4eva :D
Hmmm,so i want to have no crushes/life/dislike/boyfriend/girlfriend or whatever it is! This year its all about PMR! i hope :/ ESH, i need someone who will remind me how much a boyfriend will disturb you. How much he'll hurt you, the tears, the pain, the feeling of being hated and the feeling of being caged up. SEE i know how it feels but sometimes i forget. I shouldnt!
Haha, okay. Gonne do my geo folio now D: Bye blogg ♥

p.s.seriously dude.. put heart also can ah. LOLOLOL

emo timee

2011-04-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

Hi! Sooo, my week has been fun! But im not in a hyper mode now. I actually feel sad :( Arghh, cant stand it! Everything is so stressful nowadays! Homework,piano,studies,PMR,choir,house chores, social life, guys, girls EVERYTHING! It feels like im about to explode! actually i want to explode! Its so hard! My stupid maid running away dosent help anything. ARGH. I feel like killing myself right now. normally when im sad ill play the piano but i dont feel like playing the piano anymore nowadays. like seriously, NEVER. The only thing i feel like doing nowadays is sleep,cry or eat. & when i mean eat i only mean chocolate! I havent had a proper meal since Thursday night :O But yeah, just snacking alot which is not good :( I havent even gone jogging or anything in a long time! I feel so fat. Great! Now im a fat,sad girl. what is wrong with meeee? Arghhh! I went to church today! And pastor talked about appreciating what you have! This morning, i was so bersemangated and i said i would appreciate everything i had but now it feels like i have nothing to appreciate. All i feel is loneliness,dissapointment, anger, stressed & the need to cry. See, PMR life isnt that easy after all. okay, im gonna stop blogging cause i dont think talking about emo shits all the time is gonna make anybody's day. So yeah, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Why did i bother liking you when i know how it always ends?

lies

2011-04-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hi! So i just came back from Melaka! It was super fun! HEHE :D
But if i didnt go to Melaka, i could have gone for ICC & to the SOX place :( But i had fun also laa. So yeah. Hehe, went back on Friday night, & reached home around 10! Devina still remembers me :'D I love that baby to bits ♥ She even knows how to count now! & she's learning how to talk so its really cute. Hehe. So on saturday, we went to like so many places! i also ate like super,damn alot. Gosh, i feel so fat right now :( But yeah, we went to the sawah padi again! Good exercise la. Haha, we also bought like rock melon there! Cause there were super alot & it was cheap i think. Haha :D Bought like almost 40kg+ for the whole family :D It was super scary cause we had to walk home & it was reeaaaally dark! D: Then at night we celebrated my grandma's birthday :} The cake was super pretty! I didnt get a picture of it though :( Matthew can also walk now! Its like all the babies are growing so fast :') So i just kinda came back from Melaka! I feel so tired & i really wanna sleep but i'm going out for dinner at Monic's house soon :( Watching startrek now! Its so awesome! Teehee.
Idk why but i've been feeling so emotional lately. Idk why but i feel like crying :( But i cant so yeah. it feels like something bad is going to happen soon. Argh, i hate this feeling! Plus, i dont feel like going to school tomorrow but there's choir so i hv to :( Sigh, sad life.
My parents will be going to gunung stom or smth like that on the June holidays! So it'll leave me, my sister & my brother at home alone for like 4days! HAHA,party everyday! Thenn, my mum will be going to US for shannon's wedding in July :( & i want her to buy for me a BB there but she said she dosent want to :( My sister got her white BB bold already. So unfair laa! ASFFDJHAGKSDAHJK
Hate her so much D:< I wanna cry now. Baii.

Asian chicks

2011-03-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

Heyy! HEHE, so its Tuesday todayy.
I'm blogging for fun now cause yeah. I'm watching this response of the chick who made fun of Asians. Its so cuteeee :D
(chingchong)it means i love you,(linglong)i really want you,(tingtong)i dont actually know what that means ~ (chingchong)it's never ending, (linglong)my head is spinning, (tingtong)still don't know what that means ~
ITS SO FRIKKIN CUTE! Arghh, i wanna hug that guy right now ^.^
HEHE, okay. I'm gonna continue doing my homework. Got loads of them D:
BYEEE ♥

i wish, i have missed, the first time that we kiss

.

2011-03-26T00:06:00.001+08:00

Hi. So i was just thinking about what i wanted to say. I was gonna let out my anger towards this particular person. But instead, i wont.
This person USED to be one of my best friends. At least i thought 'it' was. Yknow what i realized? I should never fight back. Its not worth me sinning for. I've done more then enough sins to last a lifetime so i think its time to reduce them. Lol.
I actually feel sad for that person. I always kept whatever hurtful things other ppl told me abt you cause i thought we were friends yknow so i didnt want to hurt you. I actually still dont. Its just that,this time, i wont even try defending you. I know that i've also upsetted you because i always cant go out with you but today what you said to me was just plain harsh. Seriously, i am sick of being your friend. You're not only a bad example, you're a really low & shallow person. You want to be popular so badly, it has changed you. So yeah, i just had to let it out somewhere. Goodnight (:

hihi

2011-03-21T23:58:00.001+08:00

today, i would like to talk about this.

i ♥ rainbows. I know it sounds very bimbo-ic of me but i'm serious. Rainbows they just make me happy everytime i feel sad. Just looking at one makes you feel like yknow, there's more to life then what you think there is. Everything is not in white & black its just that sometimes you think you see everything that way. But its not! Its colourful (: Life is colourful.
Rainbows makes me feel like there's another place in this world where everything is pretty & for once it dosent seem so horrid. Rainbows makes the world a prettier place (:
Hahaha, okay i know i am being like a weirdo right now but i felt like i needed to express why i like rainbows. Cause nowadays everyone likes rainbows right. So yeaahhh, haha. I have school tomorrow & its like 12 now. Great! Gonna sleep once i've packed my bags. Byee (:

just when i thought things was different, that YOU were different. Guess i was wrong.

Rainbows,unicorns, sparkle!

2011-03-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

HEYYY, okay i feel abit hyper now. TEEHEE
Sooo, this holiday has been fun! Kind of! I hardly went out but yeaah. HEHE
Remember the trip to KL? IT WAS AWESOME! Hehehe. First we went to Sungai Wang, then we went to Berjaya Time Square, AnW, SK corner, then HOME! HAHAHA :D One day i wanna like go around KL! Its so easy! With the LRT & monorail! Can go Chow Kit also ;D HAHA! Its fun okay! So yeaah, i shopped quite alot! HEHE, the stuff there is super cheap! i cannot tahan i wanna go there right now with my mum & sister :( See how addictive it is! Haha :D So yeaah, it was fun la!
Theen, on Thursday, i spent the whole day at Sunway Club :D I studied verrry little! But i went to the gym & i went swimming which made me feel very proud of myself :'D HEHE i even met a friend there! Her name is amanda tan! YES! what a coincidence to meet someone there by the name of Amanda! Haha :D feel so unspecial now :(
on Friday i did nothing except go to tuition! Pn.Molly injured her leg so some teacher named Pn.Tan came in! She'll be teaching us for 1 month D: But she's kinda good la. i think :O So yeaah. Well, today! I was supposed to go to the Curve with Hui wei,Kaii,Lissa & all of them but i couldnt go :( Plus, i didnt go to impact :( But i did go swimming with my brother! Teehee! It was really fun! First, we did all the laps & all then we started like carrying each other! HAHA, i cradled my brother! Then he did this throw me up thingy in the water. HAHAHAHAH, it was just super fun :'D Just now, i went for dinner at Becky's house! Me,Monic & Becks went upstairs & started talking. It was damn funny! HEHE, i love my cousins la <3 I also just sms-ed Kevin! If you're reading this, hahahha, goodnight beddy bye land. HAHAHAHHA, i find that super funny :') HEHE, okay! Goodnight ♥

for once i feel happy. Please dont ruin it

Funny abit

2011-03-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

HEYYYY, okay. Hahaha, decided to blog since i have nothing to do!
Sooo, today all i did was sleep, watch tv. HAHA, i was about to put another comma but i didnt do anything else. Okay, idk why i am getting lamer & weirder by the minute :( I have to snap outta this! So todaaaay, i was at home alone like almost the whole day! Super scary cause it was raining then i heard noises & everything :( HAHAHA, i also texted the wrong kevin! I wanted to text my brother to ask him to come home but i texted kevin NG -.- Malu abittt. HAHA.
So yesterday we had our choir practice! It was okayy, but i was really sleepy so i dont think i sang well :/ But after that me, Felicia,Lanie & Karlmun went to Pyramid :D HEHEHE, we ate the SAAME thing at Carl's junior. We also went shopping, walking around & laughing here & there :D OOH, we also watched Rango! Good movie man :D HEHE, i ♥ them man! Shopping buddies :'D So yeah, went home around 6pm. Hehe
But that's all :( OOH, today me,kev & sara were like trading songs. SERIOUSLY I HAVE THE STUPIDEST SIBLINGS IN DA WHOLE WIDE WORLD. AHAHAHAHA :D It was just damn funny during dinner, after dinner & before dinner. Hahaha. Gotta love them :'D
So tomorrow i'll be going to Sungai Way with Hui wei & Eu lim tomorrow! and we are all gonna go..... SHOPPING! HAHAHA, yes, eu lim also! Shopping gang man! HAHA
okay! I'm actually excited cause i've heard many stories about Sungai way. The clothes there are super cheap i think :O YAYY! hehehehhe
okay, gonna eat chocolate now then sleep. BYEEE <3

Random postt :D

2011-03-13T03:11:00.000+08:00

HEYY! I like had coffee just now! My stupid brother made it for me. HEHE :D BUT YEAHHH, so i cant sleep :( But i googled things! PREEETTY things :D HEHE

YKNOW WHAT ELSE IS PWETTTY? THESE PICTURESS! HEHE ♥

KOK'S 4 LIFE ♥

BFFFFFFFF HAHAH ♥

The cooolest cousins in the world ♥

ANDDDD ME!

HI! I'M AMANDA KOK KEE MAY & I AM 15 (: OHH, I LIKE CARRIE'S JUNIOR <3

HEHEHE, that's all! I would put more pictures but i wanna sleep :( 4am noww
goodnight ♥

Wopeeeedo (:

2011-03-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

HEYY!
I had a great day (: Kindaa. Hui wei stayed over yesterday (:
We went to impact then we went to each cg groups! It was really good and i learned something (: I am truly thankful because God died for me. Isnt he the most,super duper wooper awesome! ♥ & i'm not being sarcastic okay!
So yeaah, after that we went to Wendy's & Leon drove us there! HEHE. Then Kevin came :D We went to marufuku to eat! At least they ate laa. It was really fun :D Hahaha!
I miss all the impact people laa! :( They are the best (:
So yeaah, i had a bad/good week (: School was fun! We played the 'penis' game from 500 days of summer. HAHAHA we rock man ;D
But i got reaaaly bad results! Okay, they are not thaat bad but my class is filled with smart ass people who are seriously smart -.- So yeaah, i dont wanna be last in class! :(
I'm gonna watch the MU match later! hahaha, okay byeee (:

p.s. I was definitely enchanted to meet you ♥

runaway

2011-03-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hi. I feel like shit now.
Seriously, i just felt like i needed to let it out on my blog.so here it goes!
AIUGERLJHVBADLIYUGWEUIDABLKUSDVBLYWEVBFDKALEBS <-- this is how i feel.
IDK what's gotten into me, i just feel like shutting everyone out & killing everyone or smth. Daaaamn, i've gone mad :O So yeaah, not in the best mood now :( But i watched i am number 4 today with hui wei! The movie was awesome! Seriously, i'm am totally gonna watch i am number 5. If there is one of cause. LOLOL
I'm so tired that my jokes & becoming lamer by the minute!
But i had a great week la (: Apart from getting my test papers of cause :( I also went to Pica with Hui wei,Ungku,Farah,Talya & Shoba on Wednesday! That was like the highlight of my week :D
Maybe my cranky-ness is because of not talking to him for like 1 week :/
EISHH, i dont wanna be crazy about a guy! I have too many shits happening already! I'll like suicide mann. So yeah, this year is all about PMR,my piano exam & choir!
ONLYYY. i hope :( I'm exhausted with everything la. I hate everything, everyone & every single thing i do! I hate love songs, i hate lively songs, i hate emo songs, i hate everything! Ohgosh, i'm turning into those emo freaks.
I just want to talk to someone now :( but having the right person to talk to is so hard. Everyone is a hypocrite, everyone dosent care, everyone judges people with every single thing.
Gosh, the world is a harder place to live now. I wished i was a small kid,when all i had to worry about was homework & barbie dolls & even then i hated life. Imagine me now -.- I'm gonna watch a movie now since i feel so stressed.
Bye world :/

Dr. Jekyll

2011-02-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

I'm watching CSI now. I actually understand you know!
Cause they were talking abt the inferior vena cava & i understood it.
HEHEHEHE, so cool right? Budak PMR. LOL
So yeaah, just got home from tuition. Maths was good! I understood teacher for the first time (: I also had fun messing with hui wei & eu lim's head :D
Hahahaha! Okay, so this week has been like baddd. Like seriously,
So much drama, problems & other shits. So yeah, i have verrrrrry few friends who care. like seriously. & nowadays i use the word seriously too much.
Plus, my exam is starting on Monday. & i havent finish studying yet.
Craaaap, die man :( I'm gonna watch HIMYM then study! BYEEEEEEE (:

no, seriously.

2011-02-20T14:16:00.001+08:00

HEYYY, so i was really hyped out yesterday
& i'm really hyper today :D So yeaaah, HEHE
I feel so happy cause idk why :D
I'm having like a serious problem now & i dont think i wanna put it on my blog. HEHE
OMGEE, i miss talking to this person lets just name it 'HIM'. HEHE, then we started talking again today. Kind of laa. So funny la :D
HEhe, okay, before i do anything stupid i'm gonna stop talking!
I actually have komsas work to do but i somehow started using the laptop :D
Gotta love lyf. Haha :D So yeaah, PICAAA on Wednesday/thursday! HEHE
Okay, byeeeeeeeeeeee ♥

p.s. i know i changed the word! But if YOU saw it, pleaseeeeeeee do not think of it in a wrong way okay! I was talking abt someone else & you completely slipped my mind. I'm so sorry! :/

...

2011-02-13T19:42:00.000+08:00

okay, HIII :D
So yeahh, this week was kinda okay. School was also quite fun :D
IDK why now i just feel like screaming like super loud. ARGHH, stress!
So yeahh, went for impact yesterday & we played like games which were super fun! There was this food passing one which was really gross cause i had to take the food from hui wei then i had to pass it to James. So it was really weird. HAHAHA :D
But yeahh, it was fun laa (: Then at night, we had like an open house but for my relatives. My mum's side & my dad's side. :O Damn scaryyy!My house was like filled with people everywhere :O So me, hui wei & the kok cousins were upstairs & we did alot of stupid things. HEHE :D OHOH! We watched the HIMYM newest episode! Katy Perry looked so hot! HAHA! & Devina, Daphne,Debbie & Denice also camee! Devina is super cute i cannot tahannn! & she remembers my name! :') I love that baby banyak-banyak. & Daphne is so much like me & i actually understand her. AHAHA :D
But i was like super harsh to the small kids yesterday cause they were playing in my room & stepping on my bed & all :( Sorrryyy!
But yeahh, besides that my week was the same (: I have tons of homework to do! I feel so scared of puan rachel & puan sabariah now :(
Craaaaap, i have to start studying! & i keep saying that but i never do :(
I should limit myself laa. Like every 2 days go online. Right?
So yeaah, i'm gonna finish my homework now (:
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3

CNY (:

2011-02-06T13:14:00.000+08:00

HEHE, hiii!
So yeaah, its sunday! So on the eve of CNY my family & i went to TGIF at subang parade for 'traditional' eve dinner :D HEHE. Then they all come to my house!
On the first day of CNY, we had our vegetarian lunch then after that we went visiting! HEHE. After everything, everyone came to my house again then we started gamblinggg!
Gamble until at night then eat dinner then gamble again :D HAHA. Yeahh, this year's CNY was not as fun :( No sandra & popoh :(
The next day, we left the house at like 11am & we headed to MELAKA! HEHE, yeaah.
In melaka we did all sorts of stupid stuff laa. I gambled again! Then i went for a jog at the paddy field also. AHHA :D OOOH, we played with fireworks! Like the big ones! :D
It was super loud :O But i had fun laa (:
HEHE, So yeah, now i'm back at KL. it was like super jam yesterday so we only reached home at like 1.30am :D I suggested to my mum about Kevin's idea but it totally failed -.- HAHAHA. So lucky ah Kevin :D
I havent done my homework! & yet i'm still online. Hahaha, okay! I'm gonna do it now. BYEEE (:

OWHH, Happy belated birthday Cheryl Soo & Ian Tan :D
& Happy advanced birthday Kevin Ng :P

OHOH, i cut my hair! :D

All 3bab's ♥

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Meet the Kok family (:

ROYGBIP

2011-01-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

HII, see. My blog is not that dead (:
So yeaah. If you asked me how i felt like an hour ago, i would say that i was like one of the happiest girl in the world but now i feel like .....
So yeah. ESH, at night is always emo time :(
But i tumblr-ed again! LOL. My tumblr like so sad. Haha.
But yeah, i think i like someone! But idt he likes me :/ EEE, i hate that feeling the most! Its like when you like someone but you dont know if that person likes you or not. Worse of all, he's not like the other guys! He dosent try flirting & he's honest & he's nice. But then again he might just be friendly. Sighhh.
Okay. STOPPP. this is like the reason why i promised myself to not be involved with boy drama until after PMR. GRR. Failed attempt much.
Okay, i will not like him anymore. I will not like him anymore. Shucks :(
Chinese new year is coming up! & also Valentine's day. Gosh, i'm sucha sad person.
Celebrating valentine's alone..... EEE, kay snapping out of it!
So today i went to Pyramid with Becks & Monic. Seriously! You cant find cousins as close as we are :') I love them to bits eventhough i dont tell them that. like DUH.
HAHAHA. So yeah, we had a great time! Monic did all the shopping -.- But i bought a shirt! HEHEHE. It has pictures of cupcakes on it! How cute right? :D
So yeah, i have like TONS of homework to do & i have to go to the gym man! I'm dman fat! ARGH. i cant stand looking at myself in the mirror anymore :(
ALl those skinny people who say they are fat ah. I want to KILL them seriously! Haha :D OHOH! i'm currently listening to Pray by justin bieber (:
HEHEHE, thanks Kev for getting me that song! ♥ IDK why Kevin Kok is being suddenly so nice to me. HEHE, i'm not gonna bother investigating & i'm gonna enjoy it :D HEHEHE He called me pretty yknow that day HEHEHE.
So yeah, I lap my bro & sistah. We so cool (Y)
Oh, i also really hate people who like do stuff just to be popular. I know i do that sometimes but i know when to limit myself okay.
What YOU did was just low. You stopped talking to me & started talking to all those people then when they all stopped talking to you , you came back to me. What the crap do i look like to you? -.-
OKAY, all the hate outt. (: Hahaha, i'm gonna go watch glee now!
Byee ♥

we both know i'm not that strong.

The worldd (:

2011-01-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

School has made me like so busy nowdays so its so hard to blog :( I'll try to not make it so dead! SOOO, life has been okayy.
The pendaftaran koko was good! I thought like there would be very few people joining choir but there was like 80+! I'm so happy yet stressed out! Haha :D
So yeaah. I really hope i get dont lose it this year :O
Its only January & there's like so much drama already! Hahaha :D
Girls school rightt. We cool liddat :D
& there's like truckloads of homework EVERYDAY! seriously!
But the good part is that CNY is coming soon so.. HOLIDAY! HEHE
Ohh, today was like the 1week prayer thingy for my uncle. He passed away last tuesday at like 4.30am. So like the whole week i was at my uncle's house. Then my cousins from Melaka also came!HEHE. Devina is SOOOO cute! I love her to bits man!
I also love Daphne, Denice & Debbie! They are like little monsters ♥
Haha. OHOH, i have Justin bieber ticketsss! My sister & Yan Wei somehow managed to buy for me! AHH. i'm so happy man :D HEHE. OHH, i'll be going with my best friend Hui weiii! We'll go bieber-ing together-gether! ♥
HEHEHE. Okay, i have a karangan berpandu to do! BYEEE!

Celebrating Valentines aloneeee again. Yayy.

2011 (:

2011-01-09T02:31:00.000+08:00

HEYY!
i havent blogged since last year! Seriously. Haha :D Okayy, so this year has been very hectic! Its only been 9days but it feels like forever already! & next week is like auditions for choir & everything. Today, i payed for my piano exam fees also. Goshhh, how am i going to survive this year :(
Ohh, my uncle was sent to the hospital again. He's really sick & they are asking for like on of the siblings to cut like a part of their liver to give it to him cause the liver can grow again. My mum wants to help but at the same time she's really scared! Haha :D So yeaaaah. This week didnt really go well.
I'm in a class with loads of people i dont know! Its scary :( I miss 2B alott! I had like Sandya & all to talk to! So, i'm gonna try keeping this blog alive!
Owh, i made twitter! Haha :D Becky helped me! Its actually quite fun (:
Today, i realized that i actually like the piano. The best part is that i can just start playing a song without knowing the score! I can like express my feelings thru a song. Hahaha :D Sounds so like mozart-ish. LOL
Well yeah! I've been really emotional lately idk why. Now, i realize that my family will always be there for me. Cause they have! My brother is like my best friend. Seriously, it feels like i dont have friends anymore. They all have seemed to disappear. I'm tired of trying to keep in touch with them. Its not like they care anyway. So yeah, i dont know how people can have be like best friends from 1-30. Its like so hard.
Haha, okayy. change topic! I just came home from Sunway club! I went to the gymm! i did quite okay for a fat girl who hasnt exercised in a long time. Hahaha :D Oh yeah! After that, we went to mamak. So i put on back whatever i 'lost' -.- Siggh. Getting fatter :(
Going to sleep noww! Goodnight ♥

p.s. I'm proud to be a Christian so dont look down at me for being one.

Baby blue eyes ♥

2010-12-27T12:39:00.000+08:00

Heyyy! I havent blogged for quite some time! HEHE
so for christmas, i helped my mum prepare food then at night, my mum's side came over! It was funny (Y) We watched this really violent movie & they actually made fun of some parts. Hahaha :D It was a tiring but fun! So yesterday, celebrated boxing day with my other family. known as the Kok's. HAHAHA :D
Okayy, so we went to sekinchang (note that i do not know how to spell it so i'm just simply spelling it :D) Its this place in Selangor which is quite cool. First, we ate lunch. we ate SHARKS! It tasted like poo & eating it made all of us feel bad :( HEHE, then after that we walked around & saw the boats & all. It was so cool! The boats are HUGE! :O But yeaah. It was fun! HEHE :D Then, we went to the beach where we found a crab & we were finding for seashells which was pretty. HEHE. The wind was ama-za-zing. SERIOUSLY! it was like WHOOOOSHHH. HAHAHA, i cant explain it but it was awesome! We made names for each of us! There was ROBO KOK(rebecca),MONSTER KOK(monica),I KOK(ivan), KING KOK(kevin),SA KOK(sara. It only sounds funny when you say it fast), NO KOK(nicholasHAHAHA) & MAN KOK(me) HAHAHAHHAHAHA. we are the KOK POWER okayy :D HEHEHE Then, we went to the jetty again for the parents to buy fish -.- We also went to the paddy field which was cool! My parents bought rice from there. HAHA :D We were like jakun's there! City people FTW! We also ate dinner! It was tastttty. HEHE. We ate crab! And other stuffs. In a nutshell, it was an awesome trip (:
We're planning another camerons camping trip during the March holidays! And we're also planning on going NIGHT trekking! AHHH, cant wait ♥
HEHE, okay. BYEEEE!

p.s. i like sandra's present so, so muchh! Thank you (:
p.p.s. i think you've got the wrong idea. i'm sorry :/

HOHOHO

2010-12-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

HII, so i just kinda came home from sandra's house (: We celebrated her birthday! EHEHE. Actually we celebrated a week ago so yeaah. LOL. sooo, impact sleepover was fun! (: I didnt get to sleep well but it was still awesome! HEHE. I learned a new song! HAHA, its really funny & sadistic :D Oh, and there was THE TABLE. Which consisted of me, hui wei, shin lin, david, kevin, shern wei, jun liang, jason wee, nat & ivan :D HAHAHA. We rock mann :D HEHEHE. So on the last day, we ended at like 11 but a few of us stayed to play cards. After playing cards, me, hui wei, shin lin & ken vyn went to Tropicana mall to watch NARNIA! HEHE :D It was actually nice! I thought it would suck or somethingg. HEHEE. :D Thenn, we ate pork burgers in the cinema -.- HAHAHAHA. We are horrible people :P Then, we went for the play! It was super nicee! The choir was very chun. Hahahha! But i kid you not. They were great (Y) Then e came home & i couldnt sleep till like 3 idk why D: So i woke up SUPER late! HEHE. Didnt do much. Story of my life man! :D HAHAHA, okayy. I'm gonna start reading the twilight saga again ♥ AHHH, prepared to be gooey all inside (: EHEHE

lol

2010-12-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hi, so my uncle isnt feeling very good :/
He's in Sunway hospital now cause there's a liver specialist there which uncle steward suggests. Yesterday & today i went to the hospital. My uncle seriously looked like my grandpa. Really weak, pale & skinny. The doctor even said that we should be prepared incase anything happens. This happening, is reaaaally scary. I mean my cousins were crying when they heard about the condition of my uncle. All i could do was stand there & watch them. Then on the way home, my mum started talking to me. First, i thought we were just having a normal, fun conversation when she started crying. It was really scary cause i have never seen my mum cry D: Because of this, i realized that this was what my grandma chose to not go thru. All the pain & tears. She only did it for us (: I really miss my grandma. She was the most strongest person i have ever known & watching her go was a real shocker. I really wished i had at least someone who understands cause sometimes its nice to talk about it :/ I have this friend, it was really nice to me & it was always there for me. Then one day, everything changed. We just stopped talking the way we used to. I wished my grandma was here. Cause eventhough she didnt understand me, she would just hug me & start rubbing my back. I wished i appreciated her more. I really do :/
i miss you popoh ♥

cyclones & hurricanes

2010-12-11T16:57:00.000+08:00

Hi, so now all i do is sleep late & wake up late.
Wow, like so lifeless :D HEHE, so on monday i went to Camerons to camp at some jungle. Since its raining season, it rained the WHOLE day on Monday! But the air was really cold & nice <3 But, yeaah. We froze to death! Seriously! Since we were literally camping, our tents was flooded but my dad brought air mattresses for each of us so we didnt get wet :D HEHEHE, some hell of a camping trip! But we went home the next day because the weather was horrible :( But we're going again on March! So yeaah.
There was this day when me went shopping. I went christmas shopping! So i bought quite alot of stuff & now i'm seriously broke :( No more money anymore! My sister bought alot of stuff too! But for herself -.- See how horrible she is! Tsk tsk. HEHEHHE
So on thursday, there was this super big dinner thingy at my house! It was for my australian relatives so the boys went upstairs & started their WOW and the girls, well we were talking :D Haha, it was fun! Then Yan wei was there! So he met all my aunties & uncles & cousins! Hahaha, wesley was like "tell your sister i said good job" :D HAHAHA, i think that some of them approve i guess. OH YAA! i forgot to mention that time when i went to Giant with Devina & my mum alone! HAHAHA, damn funny & cute! Cause my mum bought stuff for the camping trip so i brought her shopping for stuff. You know like those testers that they give, they give in like small small cups so it was like perfect for devina! So she was like eating eating & she even spilled orange juice on her shirt! Hahahaha, then we saw one of my teachers there which said devina was really cute! HEHEHE, then there were like so many people there which was asking for her name & saying that she was so cute. HEHEHE, she's so cute laa i cannot tahan! :D
Hahaha, okay. I'm going for dinner soon. So byeeeeee ♥

p.s. i really cant wait to meet you! Hahaha, thanks becks :D

Falling stars

2010-12-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

Hiii, so VBS ended already :(
I'm going to miss Bryan, Ethan, Justin, Christophe, Ashley, Jolynn, Wei Xin, Samuel & hannah :( But i'll hopefully see them again next year :D
HEHE, so today was a fun day :D Daphne, Denice, Debbie & Devina is here so we went out this afternoon to the taman aman park with aunty nora & my mum! Devina was sooooo hyper! She's so cute ♥ She sang Just the way you are by Bruno Mars, Nobody by the Wonder girls & Baby by Justin Bieber! IMAGINE A 2 YEAR OLD SINGING THOSE SONGS! Hahaha :D She was super cute i tell you! She is also so naughty now! Haha, at least she knows how to say my name :D She calls me manda :D
So i went for the bachelor's party just now. They had good food (Y) HAHAHA. There were hardly any people my age so i just talked to my cousins. I cant wait for the wedding dinner tomorroww! I'm gonna wear this really pretty dress (: Hopefully i'll look nice in it or else that would be just sad :( Okay, i'm quite sleepy so byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ♥

The worse part is when everyone told me about how you would hurt me i just shook my head but now i realize they were right.

APPALOM APPALOM :D

2010-12-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

HIII, i'm feeling a teeny bit high now so i'll blog about my day!
So today, i woke up feeling tired (its normal) but this time i took like a 10second nap while the kids were listening to the story. Haha :D
I finally got Christophe to talk today! He's more talkative now & he REALLLY likes Ben10 :D HAHAHA, Justin is also so cute! Haha, Shin Lin was chasing Justin for a hug which he refused to do :( But he's still cute! HAHAHA :D
So we went to 1U at 3 to meet up with Wen Yang & Shaun. We lined up at the ticket counter at gsc. When it was our turn, we ended up just leaving & decided to have lunch :D We ate at Waffle something( i cant remember HAHA, sorry!) then we went to the arcade. We got hooked on this game which we spend alot of money on. HAHAHA. It was a great laugh :D Then we played bowling! After bowling, we bought tickets to watch Megamind. That movie is actually not that bad (: Since we were all so broke, we just walked around & met Wen Yang's friend who worked at Juice works. Haha :D So, i had super loads of fun & laughed until i cried :'D something that i havent done in awhile! HEHE, okay. I'm gonna sleep now. Goodnighttt ♥
HAHA, oh yeah. APPALOM APPALOM CHING CHING APPALOM APPALOM CHING CHING APPALOM YAN WEI. AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

dot

2010-11-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hi, i dont know how long its been since i've updated but yeah.
So i went to Melaka, and saw Devina. She's really great! She knows how to talk a little now (: & i also met the rest laa of cause :D Haha, i had a great time & even learned a little 'Devina language' :D
So Monday was the first day of vbs. It was really fun! I'm helping out in zippy zebras which are children aged from 4-5 :D They are so cute! Especially Justin, Christophe, Bryan, Ervin, Wei Xin & alotttt more! Hehe, but there are also a few really scary ones like Alena. i am VERY scared of her. She bites, literally.
The second day was better though :D I mean Alena went home the first so there was no biting & scratching :D HEHE, but she has her moments (:
so today i went to Pyramid with hui wei. We were supposed to meet Kaii & Lissa but Kaii couldnt come :( So we watched this really weird movie called hunted Changi(i think that's how they spell it) Haha, it was scaryyy! Seriously D:
i also saw Monic! HAHA, it was funny :D Then i also saw becky & the whole cell cause today was also their cell outing. I felt quite bad for ditching her but she had her friends with her too!
Sooo, this past few weeks i've been watching Chuck. it is AWESOME! like seriously (: Chuck has everything action, romance, comedy & whatever else :D HEHE. Okay, i'm quite sleepy so i'm going to sleep soon. :D EHEE, byee (:

you never know how much you want something until its gone.

La-La-lA-lA-LA-LA

2010-11-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

HI HUI WEI! i'm doing your thingy cause i'm really bored. sorry :/

Bold what applies to you.

My personality:
I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have bad temper.
For the most part I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with. (i think)
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance:
I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I have braces.
I change my hair colour often.
I straighten my hair often.
I have a piercing.
I have small feet.

Relationships:
I’m in a relationship now.
I'm single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:
I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:
I listen to R&B.
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television:
I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I've seen and liked the O.C.
I've seen and liked One Tree Hill.
I've seen and liked Popular.
I've seen and liked 24.
I’ve seen and liked CSI.
I've seen and liked Everwood.

Hair:
I've been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I've been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve had my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair
I’ve braided my hair.

School:
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed math.
I’ve failed science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.

HIHI

2010-11-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

okay, i still have to go back to Melaka. but i'm kinda happy? There's the impact sleepover! :D and vbs! :D So today i had a better day!
But my brother will not be following us because he would be in Melaka too, but with his college mates. Hahaha :D Dammmn, i just realized that! I'm gonna stalk him ;D But we wont be going to same places. He'll be going to jonker walk & everything. I'll be staying at home -.- But i'll get to see Davina, Daphne, Denice, Debbie & the rest! YAYYYYYYYY! (:
Oh, i started reading books again! Hahaha, cause during the holidays is when i get bored so i start t actually read :D OHOH! i really like Justin Bieber! I think he's cute, sweet & cute! AHHH! one of those celebrity crushes. HEHE :D but, yeaaah.
I watched a walk to remember yesterday! And i also watched 500 days of summer again! Those 2 shows awesome! Like seriously (: Haha, okay. byeeeee (:

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2010-11-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

i just found out that i cant go for the last impact :( ARGGGGHH. i wanted to go :( Why did they have to change the date :( so i'm going back to Melaka this week unless stephanie changes her mind but i dont think anything will change her mind :( ARRRRRGH. okay, before i say something that i might regret, byee.

Rainy dayss (Y)

2010-11-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

OMG! HIIII :D
okay, so school today today :( BOOOOOOOOOOO. It was kinda a crappy day. In the morning, cik foo tortured us cause we 'forgot' to bring our PJ clothes. so we ran like 3rounds around the field. She's the scariest teacher. Like seriously! Even encik Jalil said it -.-
so yeahh, after that we talked, and talked. then i checked the board and saw that i'm in 3G. EEEEEEEEEEEEEE, its either full or smart people or full of not very smart people ( which i prefer wayyyy more) I hate it when we change classes :( the like last period we started singing. It was quite sad :( but fun at the same time! HEHEHE. i'm gonna miss 2Bakti-ians (': they are da bomb. No, only some of them. so i hugged alot of people today :( But i'll be seeing a few of them tomorrow. Hahaha :D The one person i'll really miss from my class will be LAVYNIA!she's the nicest person ever :( okay, no more emo stuffs!
so today, i went for cell. And it was like 'GG night' So i kinda met new people. I guess :O Second time going. Haha, but yeaah. We had fun :D We played a game with a cup which i think was made up by Nelson. Hahaha :D But it was funny & stress relieving so that's good (:
Lazy to blog about my week. And i didnt do anything anyway so yeah. tomorrow's gonna be a busy day though! I think. Hehe, cant wait ♥
Byeeeeeeeeee (:

p.s. i've got nothing to say about you anymore.

Love stories

2010-11-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i've blogged.
Nahh,its only been 5 days. Haha, seems like forever to me. Maybe its because these 5days kinda changed me. So i went to school almost everyday last week. Except Monday & Friday :P Haha, so on friday, i woke up quite late then hui wei's mum called me and told me that we were going to calvary church. I was shocked at first then i realized it was for the 0 level's thingy. We got a tour around the school ( It was really, really small with a population of only 75 students. WHAT IS THATTT?) But it seemed like a nice school laa. So we talk, talk look at their textbooks which were really nice! And yeaa. So on saturday i cut my hair. I dont really have a decent picture of me with my short hair but yeahh. Its horrible :O I also did my eyebrows. IT HURT LIKE CRAP! Seriously, i advice you to NEVER pluck your eyebrows. They hurt like CRAZYYY! Almost cried :( So yeah, my brother said my eyebrows looked weird :( And my maid called me fat cause of my eyebrows. So thats not good also :( Oh, i'm on the 14 day fitness program thingy! I have to actually weigh how much cereal i eat everyday! Its crazy mann. First day and i already ate chocolate :( I hope i'll actually lose a few kg's :( :( Today, all i did was go to church and sleep. Seriously! That's all i did. LOLOL. OHOH! just now my mum & hui wei's mum kinda like canceled our exams. So not only am i not taking the exam, but i might not change to private school! Yet. Haha, so yeaaah. I'm really tired now cause i watched High School Musical 2 and it made me cry! So sad that part when Troy and Gabriella fight :( Okay, byeeee ♥

Part of the reason why i'll miss school (:

Where's my edward? :(

2010-11-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday, at like evening-ish, my sister and i were walking to the pasar malam cause she wanted me to teman her so i follow laa.
So while we were walking, she was talking to Yan wei.
So suddenly 2 mat rempits/asses on a bike just like pulled her hair.
They wanted to grab her phone but grabbed her hair instead. So she fell down and her head was bleeding like alot. I was so so shocked that i kinda stunned there not knowing what to do :( but i saw one of their faces & i'm quite sure it was a malay (not being racist here) she was like bleeding and everything D:
I didnt know what to do so i just helped her up to we went to the clinic cause it was so near by. I was like shaking eventhough i didnt get hurt.
It was so freaking scary! I mean it was my first time going thru something like this so i was super scared so i called my brother which ran to the clinic and he started talking to the nurse and everything. I was like practically standing there with my whole body shaking and taking big breathes. My sisters blood was on the floor, on my phone, on her shirt, her hair and everything. EEEEEE, i cannot tahan looking at so much blood but i had to help her wipe it out because her hands were injured and also her knee. IT WAS THE SCARIEST SHEESH EVER MAN! now, everytime a motorbike passes by, i will like be super paranoid and start shaking. D: EEEE, scary. Thank God she wasnt hurt badly! Worse thing to happen this year apart from my grandma.
i think this year very malang :/ but i had more fun this year then last year (:
So today there were like 15people in my class. I found out that i got 6th in class. I feel so stupid D: Cause i'm in a stupid class so getting 6th is nothing t be proud of :( GRR, i could have gotten like 4A's if an A was 80 :( but its still not good laa. Today was sad yet fun :l
Oh, thank you to those who actually read my blog. I only know 2 people reads my blog. So sad right? :( Anyway, to whoever that does, I ♥ you! Thanks (:
OH, i know how to play Just the way you are on the piano already thanks to Hui wei Chin (:

Its not what it looks like

2010-11-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

HEHEHEH, AUSTRALIA WAS AWESOME :D
Firstly, the PEOPLE! i want to live there mann! Everyone is sooo friendly :')
you can say hi to someone and they'll 100% say hi back! :D
2nd, the WEATHER! its like genting but colder! the temperature dropped until like 7 degrees! HEHHEE, more to that later.
3rd, the FOOOOOOOD. AHHH! hehe, super nice! (when we're not eating all the nasi lemak & curry stuffs of cause :D ) the ice-cream there is to die for! seriously :D
4th, the clothess! Super nice! quite cheap also(!) AHHH! Hahaha :D
5th, the scenery, beach, the grass & the air! Water there is expansive though because Perth is kinda a desert so they have shortage of water :/
6th, the CHOCOLATES(!)(!) especially the dairy ones cause the milk there is like fresh and nice! HEHE, and the chocolate is high quality ;D
7th, my ROOMMATES! they are the best! Like seriously :D Whenever we have free time, we would be like talking & laughing & everything :') hehe, they are Felicia, Hanisa, Aina & Fasya ♥ but all the other people too of cause!
I found out that my head prefect can party hard. HAHA :D

so, i had a great time there :D But i didnt enjoy the plane rides! It was like so dizzy-fying. :S We took like SUPER alot of pictures. And our tour guide, uncik Jalil is like my bapa. And i am like his 'anak kesayangan' AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
this went on from the FIRST day! First i was called Zaimah then to all types of names :D AHAHA, it was funny laa. HEHE. Aussie joke ;D
And there were like *ahemcuteahem* BOYS! AHHHH! And the girls were so pretty too!
Like seriously! My buddy was really pretty (:
AHHHH, okay. I'm really high now idk why.
Got emo post later. When i cool down abit :D
OHOH! today i went to school right,
DAMN EPIC & FUN! our 'gang' in class.
We played uno while singing like SUPER loud! HAHAHA
gossip also got, made fun of people also got :D
I'm gonna miss them man :') OH OH! they pimped out my book!
HAHAHA, its damn EEEWWY cause they put names there -.-
Okay, i ♥ everyone now! BYEEEEEEEEE! (:

O' Canada ;D

2010-11-02T11:19:00.000+08:00

Hi world.
I'm too lazy to blog. HEHE, but i'm going to Australia in almost 12 hours!
AHHHHH! Haha :D Okay, so i'm gonna go pack my things & jump around.
So, BYEEEEEEEEEEE ♥
Oh, here's what i did.

Saturday: Went to KT & met vivek, bing xi & all the people again! <3 then i went to Putrajaya with all the cheerleaders. & came home at 8pm :D then went mamak with my family. LOL
Sunday: Went to church, followed mum somewhere then i went to Pyramid with Sara & shopped for like 5hours. :D Then went for dinner at Leon's! HEHE
Monday: Went to school, came home, went for piano class then went to Ming Tien with Hui wei, Shaun & eu lim :D

2010-10-30T02:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes, every girl just wishes that a guy would sing to them a song like 'just the way you are'

Everlasting,

2010-10-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hey! I didnt go to church today. D:
but if it helps, i'm listening to christian songs now ♥
Exams are starting tomorrow. I have never been so scared for an exam before :( i'm like super freaking out & going crazy! i'm gonna die D:
Sejarah tomorrow! BM 1 & 2 also! :( OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!
i dont know what i'm doing online! oh yeah, i'm supposed to print out things from Maha for my sejarah folio which was supposed to be passed up on FRIDAY!
But i didnt go to school on Thursday & Friday so i'm excused. right? D:
I think i'm gonna do like crap for this exams! Goshhh, i feel so scared!
Okay, i'm gonna print out stuffs then go study somemore! BYEEEEE!

October's here :(

2010-10-18T22:17:00.001+08:00

HI, i havent been blogging lately so, HI BLOG!
i've missed you. seriously (: Exams are coming up! And the choir performance was great (: I think. Haha, everyone says we are doing better now without uhmm, him. But if it werent for him we wouldnt have gotten to sing all the harmony's for getaran jiwa so we needed him also :D But i had a great day! Instead of going for the ceremony, me, hui wei, Kaii, Lissa & Fifi were in the Anjung warisan! I did something that i was not supposed to do :P Well in conclusion, i had a fun day :D Then i followed hui wei to her house and out for tea/ dinner. It was funny yet awkward. Hahaha :D Her niece is really cute though! Seeing little kids reminds me of Devina which i miss so, so much :( i wished i could see her! she's like 70km away (i know it seems near but its not!) obviously i miss Daphne, Denice & Debbie too! Okay, back to the exams! My exams are starting on October 25th but ending on the 29th! YAYYYY! I cant wait for 29/10/11, 1pm :D Its gonna be legend waitforit dary :D We're taking a few JPS papers! I feel really scared cause they said it would be hard :(
So, today was a really slow day. Like everyone seemed to be walking, talking, moving, singing and laughing slower :O Or maybe i'm just the slow one. Haha. So today i had stomach crams so i was half dead. Then to top it off, we had our third jab today. IT THE LIKE HELL! But they gave us sweets! It was gooood 8D i meant the sweets! haha. Okay, i'm gonna study Sejarah now :(
Till we meet again ♥

ps, life sucks.

life?

2010-10-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to do. I feel so screwed up. I don't know even know how to lead myself how am i supposed to lead 30+ students? i feel like giving up. Everything just started but with piano, exams, studies, social life & problems, everything feels so screwed up. I don't know why but nowadays all i feel like doing is lying down & staring at something till i fall asleep. That's all i feel like doing. Like forever. i wished i had no school, nothing to study, nothing to play, nowhere to go to. i can only do that if i'm dead. How ironic. Well that's my life :/

Cant get you out of my mind (:

2010-10-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,
today i had an outstanding day.
I went to church, went for tuition & slept :D
I watched High school musical 3, studied a little science then went crazy with my brother a little bit ( not in a wrong way) Haha
Then i went for dinner at this really nice food place which is super hard to find. For the first time, i didnt care about how i looked like there (:
I had fun laughing my ass off with my sister & brother.
We made lame jokes & insulted each other a little bit. then, i realized, all awhile 3 of us has always been like that (: We hate each other alright, but we love each other also. We're a bunch of retards & dogs ( the nice way to put it)
We call each other names that your parents wouldnt approve of (:
Yet, we still love each other ♥
Okay, so i came home & went on facebook & i saw a comment which made me smile.
And since then, i still am smiling (:
Thank you to *inserts name*. You made me feel wanted.
I would tell you that i loved you for that but that would be just weird. hahaha
but still, thank you very very much (:
Todayy, pastor talked about friends. I'm gonna appreciate mine more.
And to those who dont care, well screw them? hahaha. :D
Okay, that's just mean HEHEHE. Well, i love my friends.
to those who think have been a good friend to me would know that its for them! Hehe, yeaa. So byeeeeee (:
Oh, GOOD LUCK FORM 3'S! I'll be praying for each & everyone of you (:

Like we used to

2010-10-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

Heyy,
i promised to blog so i will (:
On like Wednesday/Tuesday something really funny happened.
Yeaa, that's what i'm gonna call it!
Thanks to everyone who has given me advice & helping me with everything (:
Means alot. To choir too!
Not only do i get to skip class( kidding techerss!), i feel happier.
Singing helps sometimes. It comforts you.
And singing with friends, that's wayy better (:
So we're singing Lean on me by Glee, To sir with love by Glee & Pergi by Aizat.
Those 3songs are really nice! OH, we have our coaches already!
Hehe, we're having auditions on November so do come okay?
Just when everything seems perfect,
something happens and ruins everything :/
Well, i have this friend who takes people for granted.
I was there for her/him when she/he needed me.
& she/he was there for me too, but when he/she found another friend,
that person totally forgot about me. And when she/he had promblems,
that person would come to me.
i know that 'friend' of mine isnt reading this,
but i hope that she/he knows how much that actually hurt me.
So yeaa, i dont really know what to do about that 'friend' of mine.
But i guess i have to be strong & forget?
IDK, i have like so much on my mind right now.
I'm having headache's almost everyday :(
I'm gonna sleep now.
Byee ♥
OH, Good luck to Becky, Wenyang, Leeann, Ivan, Chryssie, Alycia, YiFen, Aaron Wong, Mirren, Rayshell, Liza & all the form3's out there for PMR (:

Last friday night (:

2010-09-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

HEYY, i havent blogged in awhile.
I have done so many things but i cant remember. So yeaa.
TEEHEE. Oh,i'm still dark if that counts (:
School started! My homework is piling up, projects also! senamrobik crap -.-, studying, playing piano, finding songs, technically everything?
I'm too lazy to remember what i did so i'll just highlight the special moments (:
Tuesday i stayed back for the senamrobik thingy. Shoba became a stripper & Nureen was her "pal" :D Then we stayed back yesterday, but for choir!
We auditioned for Puan Alainal's thingyy :D
Was sucky but we didnt so thatt bad (: Today, had a great moment with my classmates!
Like we bonded. LOL. AHAHA, at least a few of us laa.
Yeaaah, sadly the year is ending already :( Siggh, it takes sucha long time for you to get used to someone then they change you AGAIN! its irritating! D:<
OHH, i'm craving for MJ cafe's food & famous amos cookies :(
All the fattening food :O Sighh, i'll never lose weight :(
Okay, i'm gonna watch HIMYM season 5 :D
BYEEEEEEEE

Cheezelsss!

2010-09-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

EHEHE, today was a hot day! Okayy,
so today, hui wei called me at like 9a.m. for something which i cant remember now. haaha :D Sorry! and i was supposed to wake up at 10.30 cause me, Kev & Sara was supposed to go to the gym & then swimming. BUTTT, we woke up late. like 12p.m.
So we talk,talk, talk & watched VMA at the same time till we decided to eat then go do our stuffs. So we went to Pyramid to eat! They wanted japanese food so we went to Sushi Zenmai :D I ate like some stupid mee & a california roll :D It was gooooooood (Y) then we had ice-cream! (GREEN TEAAA) then we wanted to go straight away but my sister wanted to look at something which wasted like 1hour -.- So we went to the Club & swammm till like 7p.m. I swam 20 laps againn! But i got darker also -.- GRRR! then we went homeee! -the end- EHEHE :D yeaa, i had a fun day!
But i was supposed to study today -.- Haihh, wasted my time againn :(
Okayy, that's all for now! HEHE
i <3 my siblings! They are stupid, no doubt! but fun at the same time (:
OOOOH! yesterday! i went out with Hui wei, Anthony(hui wei's friend) & Eu lim!
HHahaha, it was funn! And we bought wen yang's birthday present there! TEEHEE
And i finnaly saw that girll! She didnt have a slang or anything! :D
OOOOH, SHE BOUGHT ME NERDS! NNNNEEERDSS! ♥ ♥
i love her so much! Isnt she the best EVERRR? :D
Not because she bought me nerds laa obviously! hahahaa :D
Cause she's mah bestfwen :') BODYPARTTTS! HEHE
okay, byee ♥

LA-LA-LA

2010-09-12T01:25:00.000+08:00

I just came back from PD and i am seriously super dark ;( I even have sunburn! And you can see the shape of my swimming suit which looks quite funny. HEHE. I only went to PD for like 2days! But we swam 3times & went to the beach in 2days :D HEHE.
Anyway, the first day, we reached then changed then swamm. Like till latee then we barbequed then swam again! Slept at like 4ish cause i couldn't sleep :/ woke up the next morning like early i think. At 11-ish we went swimming then to the beach then back to the swimming pool! HEHE. we finished swimming at like 3! We played like monkey in the pool & we didnt get bored of it! HEHE :D then we went home at 5 :( We were supposed to go to Melaka but my dad was tired :( I wanted to see Davina so badly!
Okayy, that's about it. I'm super tired so maybe i'm gonna sleep early. My face hurts like ALOT! And i'm so ugly, i dont dare look in the mirror :( Did i mention it hurts? And the worse part is that my swimming suit didnt cover many parts so like almost my whole body is darker D:
Okay, byeeee :(
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eventhough you mean so much to me,
i can't wait through everything.

somewhere over the PRETTTTY rainbow!

2010-09-10T03:54:00.000+08:00

HEHEHE, this past 3days/2days have been really funny!
It may seem like i'm a lifeless person like to the MAX but its actually quite fun!
I've been going for lunch/brunch/ hunting for food/dinner/bazaar/pasar malam/ deserts/ snowflake/ baskin robbin's/ secret recipe & many more places!
HAHA. On wednesday, i was supposed to go for tuition.
But it was SUPEEER jam! So we wanted to eat.
Then, suddenly there was no more jam. LOL. SO we went to this pan mee place which was reallllly far! Sara said that the food there was good. Hahaha
So we ate pan mee(DUUH) which we're supposed to add our owen chili.
Yan wei frikkin finished almost HALF the bottel of chili flakes.
Not being dramatic! SERIOUS SHIT MAN! Super scary the way he eat!
HAHA, me & sara was like SUPER full & he was still hungry -.-
So he brought us to snowflake! He bought this thingy and i tried a little bit.
Quite fun & nice actually. Cause its like chewy. LOL AHAHA.
Theen, we went for round 3! Ate baskin robbins! YUUUM (Y)
came home, blablablabla HEHEHEHE :D
Next day, Sara send for me tuition at like 1.30 & i stayed there till 4 :(
But after that we went to the bazaar in TTDI & there was nothing much there so we went to the pasar malam somewhere near SS2. Bought quite alot of stuff :O
FRIEDDD stuff. HAHA! & it tasted good! We bought our dinner there :D
Then went home & like EEEEATT. AHAHA :D Yan wei bloody eats alot! HAHAHA.
SERIOUSLY! you can ask him if he's still hungry and he'll say yes -.-
HAHA. OOH, i'm going to PD tomorrow with the KOK family ;D
AHAHA, SWIMMMING! WHEEE! (:
Byeeeeeee!
OOH, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! <3

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HEY HUI WEI! I MISS YOU! YEA, YOU HEARD IT! HEHEHE :D BTW, I WANNA SEE MY RAINBOW FLAG! HAHA :D

things will never be the same,

LOL

2010-09-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

No one ever blogs anymore. its so sad :(
Am i seriously the only one who blogs? :O
Today all i did was sleeeeeep, eat healthy stuffs & study.
i studied! Kindaa, hehe. Maths only though D:
Got so much more stuffs to study! GRR.
I'm gonna watch a movie now and sleep late again cause that's all that i plan to do this holiday. Sleeeep 8D
OOH, i played with my mummy's eyeliner today!
Its like my second time using an eyeliner. SO TEEHEE.
I also cam-whored a little. HEHE
Okay, bye (:

SKYPEEEEEE, anyone? :D

This is what i plan to do during the holidays :D

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,

2010-09-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

Today i went to RSC ( royal selangor club) with Shoba & Sandya!HEHE
We swam, played tennis then ate :D It was super fun!
Hahaha, we were like a bunch of idiots! Seriously,
jumped, cried, laughed, screamed, & laughed somemore :D
OWHH! We cam-whored alot too! Shoba's fault ;D
Haha, then i came homee and watched Sara eat. PFFT
then i watched like 2 and a half movies :D HEHE.
Making full use of my holidays huhh? No plans for tomorrow thoughh.
Actually no plans for the whole week! Didnt plan anything :(
Gonna skype now with anyone who wants to skype!
So if you're looking for a skype buddy just ask me okay? I'm super boredd :(
OWHH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON LAI!
You are like the best! SERIOUSLY! hopefully you'll read this :D
I'll always remember youu! I mean you are the one who i went to world stage with!
And during camp! And thenn we watched a show together also before! I cant remember what show though. SORRY! Haha :D And many other great memories!
HEHEHE, thank you so much for everythingg!
I LOVE YOUU! HUGS! ♥

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Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don’t know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don’t know because you talk as if you’re fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you’re not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don’t bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.

I've given up on people who dont care cause i cant seem to care anymore too.

whoop whoop?

2010-09-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

My friend is telling me about this guy that she likes & how she thinks he likes her too. And i'm sitting here just smiling at her cause i know that's what she wants. But in my head, i know that i'm jealous of what she has.
No matter how small or how big it is,
i want it. I want it so badly,
if i could pick how my life would turn out,
i wouldnt pick this life.
As much fun i have, there are more tears shed.
Kay, i dont know what i just said. (:
i watched step up3 with Becks & Monic just now.
I also watched camp rock2! Step up 3 was wayy better.
I cried in both movies! :O
Yeaa, it was fun (:
Kay, byeeee (:

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I'm a walking travesty, but i'm smilling at everything.

Cause we rock :D

2010-09-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

HEHE, my holiday started today at 1.30p.m! :D
Today at school, we were like SUPER high! first, we had to do the senam robik thingy because of Cik Foo. So me, Sandya,Shoba,Iman & Nureen actually thought of stuffs! We were like the best team! (no kidding!) Haha
Had fun & laughed a LOOOOOOT ;D
We did all types of REALLY stupid stuff. Then it was BM.
We had our Lisan today & we used the same group!
Hahaha! It was like funny & teacher was so cool!
HAHAHA, cause we were talking manglish, laughing a lot & crapping stuff and teacher gave us 25/30! HAHA :D
Thenn, rehat! Like normall. Then sivik!
We played the board game again. I think we played it too much till we got bored of it!
We laughed and did stupid things again ;D Our group is like the noisiest among all the others! We da bombb ^^
OMGosh so lala i cannot tahan! Haha :D Then. There was GEO!
Teacher couldnt enter class & no teacher entered actually.
We sang. REALLY LOUDD. i think people in Australia could hear us!
AHAHA. People were like staringg and all. We sang from emo to those clubbing songs! I guess a way to spend a memorable time before 2 weeks of not seeing each other! Hahaha :D But it was awesome lah! Then, MORAL.
Oh we learned moral alright ;D HAHA. Me, San & Shobs sat together.
Teacher had to like threaten us! HEHE.
Blablabla. My sister picked me up late. As usuall.
Then we went to pick up my mum then went for lunch at that place me and sara wanted to eat so badly but the food wasnt as nice as we expected it to be :D
We ate near the Sunway college! Then we went to the hospital to visit my dad!
I watched a movie with Sara for like 30mins then my dad had to go so we left. Me and my sister went to the club to swim :D I swam like 22laps! Super tiring man! Sara swam 21 laps! He first time. Wakaka. Thenn, i saw 2 girls there!
They were wearing like one piece swimming suit & this one girl, when she was swimming, she lifted up her hands then there was like a FOREST there! no kidding!
I was like laughing while swimming! HAHA, i know that's mean but i cant help it :O
EHEHE, then we ate dinner then here i am :D
I'm so tired because i didnt have my nap so i'm going to sleep!
Tomorrow is going to be a longg day! EHEHE.
OH YEAHH! Today, my mum asked me to buy like a drink for my grandma so i went in, bought the drink then the cashier was like smilling at me so i smiled back! He said my senyum very manis! & that he scared after he dream about my senyum. Then said somemore nice things! EHEHE. HE'S SO SWEEEEEET. OMGOSH. i ♥ him. :D
Okay, BYEE (:

For the first time,

2010-08-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

There's an awesome song called terrified by Katherine McPhee!
Go listen to it okay? Its really nice (:
Owh, its Merdeka! Happy Merdeka? Yeaa, Lol
Today i woke up at 10ish then i found out that my friend came -.-
Hahaha, Whoops TMI :P
Thenn i had lunch. Then i slept again for like a longgg time!
Hahaha :D I'm sucha a pig! I followed my mum to my aunty's house & saw all my uncles! They were playing mj. Pffft. Then i went home & went for dinner after that :D
Dropped kevin home then went to Giant! AHAHA.
Okayy, such a boring day. Was supposed to go Pyramid today :O
Dangg, i'm tired. :D EHEHE, i'm too lazy to go to school! I havent gone school for like 5 days cause most of them were holidays and i skipped school on Monday!
EHEHE, i have a good excuse so i guess its okay :P
I've got to study & do my folio's but i'm too lazy.
Haihh, what should i doooo? i need a friend to ask me to study everytime. :(
Okay. Byeee :(
I've got nothing to do now. Facebook only. Heh.

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I'm at the edge of my emotions.

2010-08-31T02:51:00.000+08:00

when i think of you,
my hand trembles,
my legs starts shaking,
my palms gets all sweaty &
my heart skips a beat.
That's how much i love you.

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I once swore that I would die for you. But I never meant it like this.

we lost it,

2010-08-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired right now,
but i feel the need to express my feelings somewhere.
I know i said that we're friends and all,
but i dont think i'm ready to be your friend which you can tell all your girl problems to. I'm sorry, i just cant take it cause every single word is like a knife stabbing into my heart. i'm really sorry,
i will be there for you,
but not in that way. i just cant take it. i'm really sorry.
you should know who you are,
so please dont ask. You know i'll deny it.
i'm tired & in need of my best friend which is at the other side of the world :/
God please save me.

Merdeka! Weeheee.

what else to doooooo?

2010-08-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

100 Truths!
After you've filled this out, tag 5 people and have them do the same.
1. Last beverage→ FRESH orange juice(Y)
2. Last phone call→ Mummyy
3. Last text message→ Sandya Sripathy
4. Last song you listened to→ We'll be a dream ♥
5. Last time you cried→ Last night?
FIVE HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → Uhuhh.
2. Been cheated on? → Idk
3. Kissed someone & regretted it?→ Hmmm,
4. Lost someone special?→ Yup
5. Been depressed?→ yea?
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Colours of the rainbow (:
2. pink
3. black
4. white
5. brown
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → Yupp!
2. Fallen out of love → Uhuh,
3. Laughed until you cried → Who hasn't? :D
4. Met someone who changed you → Yea
5. Found out who your true friends were → Yea D:<
6. Found out someone was talking about you → Yea
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ Uhmmm,
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → All?
9. How many kids do you want to have → 3!
10. Do you have any pets → 2 dogs
11. Do you want to change your name→ Nahh (:
12. What did you do for your last birthday→ Had a surprise, went to church & went for dinner & a movie <3
13. What time did you wake up today → 10ishh
14. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Facebook-ing
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Breaking dawn! :O
16. Last time you saw your father? → Uhhmm, last night?
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Every single bit.
18. What are you listening to right now → we'll be a dream - We the kings
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? → a tHom, but not tom. Haha :D
20. Have you ever thought that your best friend is stealing your boyfriend/girlfriend --> NO!
21. Name 5 person that you trust the most --> Hmmm, hui wei,leeann,sandya,leon lai,rara kok
22. Have you ever told a white lie just to cover up for your friends -->Yeaa, haha :D
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → my 2 folio's that i have to do?
24. Most visited webpage → Facebook?
ALL ABOUT YOU
1. What's your name→ amanda kok kee may
2. Nicknames→ Panda, camanda, salamanda, anything that wen yang comes up with!
3. Relationship Status → single :/
4. Zodiac sign → Gemini
5. Male or female or transgendered → Uhmm, MALE! :D
6. Elementary--> Tadika Chim (:
7. Middle School → Kampung tunku
8. High school --> Sri Aman
9. University/College--> Idk yet
10. Hair color → Light brown?
11. Long or short --> Longggg :D
12. Weight --> As if i'll tell the whole world -.-
13. Do you like studying --> Are you kidding me? Haha
14. Do you like sports --> A few of them
15. Are you smarter then your friends --> no :(
16. Height → 159cm i think!
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → Manyy! LOL
18: What do you like about yourself? → Uhmm, nothing?
19. Piercings → Ear lobe :D
20. Hobby --> Watching tv, going online & going outtt!
21. Righty or lefty--> Righty ;D
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → Form 1!
23. First piercing → 6yearsold
24. First best friend → Karen? cant really remember D:
26. First sport you joined → Badminton. HAHA
27. First pet → a dog?
28. First vacation--> Melaka?
29. First concert → i think it was westlife!
30. First crush → edward ;D
31. First kiss --> uhhmmmm,
32. First enemy --> Haha, i cant remember :D
33. First word said --> KAKA! HAHAHA
34. First handphone --> A sucky one!
35. The time when you had your first handphone --> Std 6
36. First laptop --> If you count the bloody slow one mine then form 2. Lol
37. The time you had your very own laptop --> I just said form 2! -.-
38. First friend --> Karen?
39. First car --> Woww, i'm can drive 8D
40. First trip out of the country w/o relatives but with friends or with school --> singapore
41. First boyfriend/girlfriend --> Khalid Feroz. HAHA
42. First lie --> maybe 6years old. Lol
43. First bad word --> Stupid :D
RIGHT NOW:
44. Gonna get myself --> a pillow!
45. Eating --> nothing, but i'm hungry!
46. Drinking → ORANGE JUICE
47. Doing --> This tag?
48. I'm about to → die
49. Listening to → we'll be a dream. (i've said this 3 times -.-
50. Wishing for --> Idk
51. Waiting for → my dinner
YOUR FUTURE :
52. Want kids? → Yeahh
53. Want to get married? → Nahh, i wanna be a nun!
54. Want to be famous --> For nuts?
55. Want to be rich --> who wouldn't?
56. Want to be a celebrity --> Not really
57. Want your life to be interesting? --> Isn't it already?
58. Where would you like to live --> in the dumpster
59. Don't want mistakes to be repeated --> yeaa?
60. Careers in mind --> Accountant!
61. Ready for your future → no.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
62. Lips or eyes? → both ;D
63. Hugs or kisses → right now, both!
64. Shorter or taller → taller
65. Older or Younger → older
66. Romantic or spontaneous--> both (:
67. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
68. Sensitive or loud → both
69. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
70. The inside or the outside of the person --> both
71. Trouble maker or hesitant → neither!
HAVE YOU EVER :
72. Kissed a stranger → would be fun. Right?
73. Had a one night stand → Hahaha, no.
74. Lost glasses/contacts → nopee
75. Sex on first date → No.
76. Broken someone's heart → Idkk
77. Had your own heart broken → Obviously :(
78. Betrayed someone --> yea D:
79. Been arrested → nahh
80. Turned someone down → Uhmm, idkk
81. Cried when someone died → DUH!
82. Liked a friend that is a girl? → EWW, i'm straight!
83. Ever thought that you were lesbian or gay --> I did! ONCE! LOL
84. Made someone so angry till they want to kill you --> Idk!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
85. Yourself --> No?
86. Hopes→ fake
87. Miracles → fake
88. Love at first sight → fake
89. Heaven → yea :D
90. Santa Claus → No, he never gives me anything :(
91. God --> YES!
92.Kiss on the first date? → Uhmm, idk really
93. Angels → Uhm
94. Friends --> yea (:
95. Family members --> yea
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Do you actually love your enemy? --> Yes?
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes :(
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No, haha
99. Had been caught cheating? --> nopee
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Then what am i doing now? -.-
TAGGED:

whoever that updates their blog! (:

stop crying your heart out,

2010-08-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

They say love gives you hope,
how come love just hurts me all the time over and over again?
yeaah, that's what i thought.
i used to feel sad, now i'm just so used to the pain i feel nothing.

Just another day,

2010-08-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

Hi, i'm mat salleh :D
Pn. Noraini made me become him! Its not the american masaleh, its the sejarah Mat Salleh! Weird name, i know. haha :D
I'm so tired. tomorrow's a holiday though.
so i guess i can wake up late!
but i'm also going out with hui wei,jason & eu lim tomorrow!
Weird huhh? LOL. hui wei's idea!
Yeaa, got 2 folio's to do :( Too lazy to start on it!
And hui wei's leaving on saturday! Grrrr.
i'm tired laa, good night & sweet dreams <3

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its been getting better, i think.

We'll never find out.

2010-08-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

I'm too lazy to blog now, but i had fun in school today.
yeaah, i still dislike those two.
She's still sarcastic.
&&, dont force me to do something that i dont want!
What are you? my dad? You're not even my boyfriend. LOL
doing the choir logo now! It turned quite plain.
OWHH, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LEEANN!
I had fun yesterday eventhough it was just for like an hour.
Hope you had a memorable one ♥
Kayy, goodnight & sweet dreams.

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Do you remember the nights we stayed up just laughing?
smiling for hours at anything.

a tittle.

2010-08-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

Today was sucha dragg. I woke up, went somewhere, then went for Mr.Rauuu's tution (that was the only fun part,seriously) then went for jungle trekking which was torture! I guess its because i havent been going for awhile.
Then i went for dinner at Aunty Irene's house which was also fun.
Yeaa, that's pretty much my day.
Owh yeaa, then i faught with my mum twice today.
Felt nice to let out the anger?
My attitude changing is not my fault. You put me in that school, so you must have wanted me to be like this. (not that i'm calling Sri Aman a bad school, only some of the students are bad. SOME)
so yeaa, deal with the attitude. Or maybe i'm just PMS-ing today.
cause i screamed a lott. & was very b*tchyy. orrr its permanent.
right now, i'm so tired so i cant really be bothered.
Yeaaah. You know that moment when you realize that all along,
you actually have nobody to go to? or that no one cares?
Sucks right? i know the feeling.
So yeaaa, i think i'll just head to my bed right now.
Goodnight & sweetdreams ♥
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I'm tired of all this drama, i need a new start.
& to forget you, which is the hardest part

Ohh love,

2010-08-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

Today was funny. Hehehe.
I started of the day badly but then it became better once Maths started then during BM, we only studied for 30mins then we did our Civic thingy :D
Hahaha, i think stuff like this brings our class together & it also shows us the class bitches (: so we know who to avoid laaa. ahah
Then a stayed back to practise, there were only like a few of us!
I played as lavynia for awhile. DAMN FUNNEH. AHAH
We have the stupidest J.W.W Birch, translators & kapten speedy (Y)
Yeahh, hehe. i came home rightt,
then i watched icarly & drake&josh! So fun!:D
HEHE, i feel so excited for tomorrow! Idk why. HEHE
Need to sleep early today so kapten speedy wont look so ugly!
Haaha :D Okayy, goodnight readers ♥
XX

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Ohh love, i'd be that fool for you.

Watcha sayyy,

2010-08-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

HIYA :D
today was another dayy. we have this sivic thingy coming up,
my class is not even close to ready. and i'm captain speedy!
EHEHE, i get to carry this really cute toy gun! So fun :D
Thenn, uhmmm. i think i need another Budak Berak meeting <3
Hahaha, something to cheer me up!
feels like my life is falling apart sometimes,
but then something always makes me happy again (:
My brother is sickk! He has feverr! So i have to go upstairs and always ask him if he's hungry or not. Hahaha :D He looks so funny when he's sick!
Last time, i had so many things to talk about but now i'm speechless.
Maybe its because i dont have as muc problems now.
that's good. right?
And to youu, i think its not right for you to talk to me.
so stop talking to me. I mean it in the nicest possible way (:
okayy, bye <3

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i think i'm done with everything already.

WOW-OH-WOW

2010-08-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

HEHEHEHE, today was so fun!
I slept in class! And we had our sivik thingy!
Which i'm supposed to be captain speedy so i get to 'almost' kill ashwini but idc, i'm gonna kill her anyway :P
nowww, i'm supposed to sleep but i'm waiting for someone so i guess i cant yet D: but, i dont mind! HEHEHE
today, choir had our AGM! So cool you know! I didnt know we normally had one.
LOL. So during the AGM, we like ellect all the people with jawatans for 2011 (:
THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH FOR SELECTING ME (: i hope i wont let you guys down!
But i ♥ you guys! TEEHEE, malu laahhh.
i played ice with San,Fifi & Farah today! I also learned more about puasa. :D
ANDDD, i learned more about my sister's boyfriend -.-
He's like on this super strict diet so he cant eat anything besides boiled chicken, and raw carrots. How fun is thattt? *sarcasticly*
He dosent eat chocolatesss! OMGG, how does he tahan?!
The sacrifices someone would make for their body. Tsk tsk.
Haha :D Yeahh, i love my sister & brother.
They are so stupid until i cannot tahan but that's why i love them :D
HEHEHE, OKAYBYEE.

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All over again ♥

i suka laah :D

2010-08-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY!
I just came back from melaka which was really fun :D
I miss that place! The beach is one of the most romantic place in the world to go for dates <3
I'm glad i went back (: it helped me make some important choices.
My life may not be perfect, but there's always my family to help me get through it all (: EHEHE,
Yeaaa, i miss my BFFL'S :D
I've got so much homework to do & yet i'm still online!
Faceboook & blogger FTW! i'm gonna sleep now!
BYEEEEE (:

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The more you cant get a person, the more you want them.

MINI ME.

2010-08-13T00:53:00.000+08:00

HEYY :D
okayy, i'm supposed to blog about this new friend i met! she's a realllyy nice girl :D AHAHAHA, she's super funny and i think she used to be a dude. butt well too bad :P
okayy, she's from DJ her name is iaina ;D
AHAHHA, okay its actually ian. he wants to be a girl!
And i let him become a girl for a few minutes and turns out he makes a better girl than guy :P KIDDING! EHEHEHE
KTHXBAI!

p.s. i miss youuu SNSSNHIS BABI'S dont have too much fun without me ♥

you know,

2010-08-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

dont give up on me,
i know we'll make it through this.
i love you, always had. ♥

when it rains,

2010-08-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hey remember me? I was always there for you. I was the one you talked with for hours and hours. I was the one you could tell anything to. And the one that fell for you. Doesn’t that mean anything to you? We can’t even have a conversation anymore.

I agree with that! someoneeeee who i used to talk to last time for many hours now dosen't even know if i died or not.
Kay, idk what to say now. so byee!

yes, i know how to spell. unlike youuu. :P

p.s. i'm ready to take all my chances with you ♥

music & lyrics (:

2010-07-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

This song is so cuteee! & its niceeeee!

Way back into love (:

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that i'll be there for you in the end

Go listen to it okayy? HEHE
Going out the whole day tomorrow! cant waittt!
Oh happy birthday Rara kok! i'll hae another birthday post for you someother time :D
I &eharts; you, you bitch :D
you owe me a ride back home in HIS car. EHHEHE
BYEEEEEE! (:

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2010-07-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

A little effort would have been nice you knoww,
i dont get you, at least not anymore.
maybe we were never meant to be,
what are we doing now? i'm sick of this.
i miss that bit of happiness i had :/

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i'm forever yours, at least that's what i thought.